Hi, my name is Daisy, and I'm 15 years old and when I was little I knew I wasn't normal.
I was always Scared, Sad ,and always felt alone.
So my mom took to the doctor and they diagnosed me with depression.
It was hard with life because when I'm sad I would cry in the bathroom sometimes I cry just cause
when I'm not sad I have no feelings I just don't feel anything I only feel my heart beating and me breathing everything else is just blank.
I sometimes just wish I could be happy for what I have right now like my best friends that always want to help but I don't tell them anything but the fake smile that I put on people think is real.
My boyfriend is amazing honestly I'm really shocked I even have him he's the best because he loves me for who I am both my depression side and my fake side he makes me happy but only for a little then u get depressed all over again but whatever that's me so.
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I just wish I was normal. I wish my smile could be real. I wish I was happy at last. But that will only be my wishes are not reality.
Anyways, I'll talk about my life now. My life is so boring but you oh well. All I do is get up when my alarm goes off go to the bathroom and just do what everybody does take a shower, sometimes if I'm not that lazy I will wash my hair and shampoo it and also condition
it but it depends how I feel. Than I try to eat food, sometimes I'm not hungry but everybody says "breakfast is the most important meal of the day" so I eat Lucky Charms.
Sometimes I wish when I eat Lucky Charms I could be lucky and I wish to be happy again
but than again that's a wish not reality. Than every weekdays I go to school so I put my shoes on (yes I have clothes on)
and grab my bag and go to school and I never forget to put my fake ass smile.
When I'm at school I go to my 7 classes and be with my best friends named Chelsy, Sophia, Cyiza.
They are the ones I hang out with a lot. My boyfriend Stephan the cutest person ever in life.
But he is also one of the nicest person you will never find because he would do anything to make a smile on people and do anything to make the world more happy.
That's what I do at my school usually On weekends I just stay in bed or go to the living room to watch tv.
My family I love in a house with my old brother Christopher, my big sister Annabelle, my big sister Tia, my little sister Isabel, and my mom and step dad and last but not least me.
That's a big family if you ask me I'm always alone so it's not big for me.
My family don't really talk to me because I'm the "quiet" one because when they laugh I'm just there sitting like if I'm not even breathing but I am Sadly
Sometimes I go out but always put a fake smile to not worry them because they already need to deal with their own thing they don't need to deal with my shit.
All I'm saying is that without a smile I'll always fuck up things because I'm always depressed Well this is me I'm a fucked up person who won't be happy until I die
