Before I met you, my life was numb,
Void of any feeling.
I kept my heart shut to the world,
No need for any healing.
Too many scars and pain exist,
When feelings spread at random.
What point was there, I didn't see,
I kept my heart protected.
Then I met you, out of the blue,
So suddenly, I didn't know what to do.
You wanted enterance, but I resisted,
Afraid of what awaited me.
In time, I tried, and cracked a door,
Your love seeped through a little.
Afraid of more, I closed it up,
But opened up a window.
The feelings haunted me at night,
I thought of you a lot.
I wanted more, but fear prevailed,
And then I did the unthinkable.
I ached all over, that's what I'd feared,
I knew that I had hurt you.
I hated every inch of me,
Forgiveness?....Never!
Then an idea came to mind,
How about we try being friends?
And only in a week's worth time,
From friends we've become more.
A world of new things opened up,
Still scared but I pushed on.
Then step by step you took control,
And then a ring slid on.
For 5 long months, we couldn't wait,
Our love grew stronger, bigger.
Ran into issues, and overcame them,
Together things are easier.
Now here we are, 2 months into marriage,
And stronger we became.
The longer we are together,
The stronger we'll become.
I look at the life I had before you,
I look at the life I'd have without you.
I see the life I have with you now,
And this outshines all others.
“My Life” © Tia Swan 2011
