As the title says, my dear. I'm unsure where I was going with this ever since I wrote it about two years prior, but I never finished it and never will. Enjoy.
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You click out of the test. Its the fifth one that day. Online test after online test, they all seem to be the same. You decide to turn off the computer for the night. Its 11pm.
You toss and turn. You attempt to fall asleep, to no avail. It could have been hours, but you are unable to tell as you finally fell into a restless sleep.
School was hell. You couldn't pay attention at all, and was dozing off throughout class. Your peers see this, and laugh at you. You don't know why. You ignore them again, though it still feels like a sword through your heart.
Recess comes. You have no appetite despite not having eaten anything for dinner and breakfast. Instead you stow away in the library. Your classmates start to call you a loner. Yet, on the few days you actually go to the canteen to eat, there is no place for you. Nobody wants you to sit with them so they say the table is full. When you stand next to their table, they seem very upset and leave extremely quickly. You stop talking to them or having any form of contact with them anymore. This becomes a routine.
Your class hates you.
The days come and go. You don't get much sleep anymore as you feel more and more fatigued as the days pass by. It comes to one of your off days again, where life no longer feels worth living. Your class hates you and outcasts you. You decide to tell your parents you're sick today to refrain from going to school. You cry silently for no reason as you fall back asleep.
You do not belong.
You feel worse with each day, and you feel like your last threads of sanity are slipping away. You spend extended periods of time under your blankets and slipping away to your dream world where you have lived in for many years. You slowly stop doing homework, and lose motivation to do many things, especially your favourite past times such as reading, cycling, and playing video games.
You slowly lose all sense of reality.
You thought
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Dark Stories
General FictionLiving life with (maybe? Most probably) depression. EDIT: Republishing my old works here, rated M for questionably dark themes and TW for suicide/suicide ideation.
