The Lost Girl

chapter 1 my chlidhood

My name is Kristina Anna Maria Gray I am 20 years old. My childhood was nothing perfect it was pretty much hell for the most part I was the only child, my mom was a drunkie, and my so called dad was barley in my life (only when he wanted something).. but he is gone now and I don't have to worry about him anymore.

Anyway when I was 10 years old my mom had just put me to bed but, how can I go to sleep with all this racket of loud music and drunkies and the bedroom right beside mine where this man and women was in and all you can hear is moaning and groaning. Then all of a sudden my door cracked very slowly. I put the covers over my head so whoever it was would think I'm sleep and would leave.

When I heard the door keep opening and opening I heard footsteps get closer and closer to my bed then whoever it was Sat on my bed. I heard a familiar voice say "hey baby want you go ahead and take off your clothes" I was shaking scared and breathing hard.

All of a sudden he took the covers off of me and took my clothes off and was touching me in places that no one was suppose to touch until you was married from my understanding. I screamed my lungs out "ahhhhhh help me please" but no one came. Where was my mom? Thoughts started going through my head as I felt something go into me that I had never felt before the most worst hurtful pain in my life.

When I woke up I noticed that I had passed out I woke up blood was everywhere I was lying in a puddle of blood with the worst pain I had ever felt between my legs. I went to the closet in my room and sat there for a long time until my mom came into the room and was looking for me she opened the closet and had asked "what happened baby? why are your sheets bloody?" I Shook my head. I didn't want to talk about it so I ran to the bathroom and locked the door and took a bath I felt filthy, nasty, dirty, and like a sinner.