I'm In Love With An Idiot

c h a p t e r 6

I should've have stopped him then and there. But I didn't. I don't know why.
I guess I just was a lot more drunk than I thought I was.

Alec continued to kiss me, his hands still gripping my thighs as I sat on the counter. This was not the Alec I knew, this wasn't the me I knew.

Alec's lips trail from my mouth down to my jaw, then to my collarbone. Breathing hard I groaned a bit as I grabbed his head and pulling him closer.

He hoisted me up off the counter, my legs wrapping around his waist, and went into the living room. Everyone else was crashed.

Since there was no room on the couch (cause it was covered with Maddie's and Ryan's) so we went into a downstairs bed room, it didn't look like it was occupied, eh I'm sure other people have had sex in it before.

We dropped onto the bed as I giggled, clearly drunk out of my mind. Alec got on top, kissing me. I let his hands go where ever they please.

I felt his slid off my shirt. It felt cold as the warm fabric slid off my body. I did the same to Alec.

Rolling so I was on top, I unclipped my bra. Then my lips were back on his, kissing him hungrily.

I can back to reality.

I can't do this.

I pulled away. "Alec I'm sorry I can't, your way too drunk to remember anything and I don't want to be the one to tell you in the morning." I got up and put my bra and shirt back on, and walked out of the room closing the door behind me.

I sighed, sitting on the couch next to Maddie's head.

She woke up, seeing me there, she sat up rubbing her eyes.

"Hey, why aren't you asleep?"

"Uhhh, I got a little 'sidetracked' "

She eyes widened, "Did you have sex with Alec?"

I looked away, "Almost."

"What stopped you?"

Who is this Maddie? It's not the one I knew.

"Are you ok Maddie?"

"A little drunk, why?"

I huffed, "This just isn't like you, drinking, having sex, like seriously are you ok?"

She sighed, "I just feel like I was always a goody two shoes, I'm just trying to loosing up a bit."

I nodded, "I guess that makes sense."
"So tell though, why did you stop, we all know you like him at least a little bit."

I bit my bottom lip, " I don't know, it didn't feel right at all, there was no passion in it what so ever. Plus he was totally drunk and I didn't want to be the one to tell him what happened in the morning."

She nodded in agreement. "Well we should both get some sleep, I want to actually get some work done this weekend."

We said goodnight to each other and I sat in one of the pullout chairs and drifted off to sleep....