Saying youre fine

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Audens pov

"You feeling better?" Nan asks "oh yeah I'm fine" fine as in fucked up, insecure, neurotic and emotional truth is I'm fine. I grab my tray full of obviously great tasting pancakes and some delicious syrup. I eat half of one and throw the rest away as I walk up to my room, I open the door and quickly close and lock it. I walk into the bathroom and grab my razor and cut a few times, by a few I mean more than usual, I don't know why though I just felt like it. I put all my wristbands back on and put jeans on along with a plain black long sleeve shirt, I hear a knock on the door and make sure no scars are showing then answer it "people want to see you, and comb your hair it's a mess today" nan says and walk off, I walk to the bathrooms and look at the feminine features that I hate, I run a brush through the fading blue hair that sit on top of my head.

I walk downstairs practically dragging my feet, the first day someone wanted to see me I was happy thought they would be nice and boy was is wrong, some transphobic and homophobic son of a bitch thought she could 'correct' me by abusing me and starving me, I started cutting a week after adoption by her and finally I got out of there and I know what to expect now. I sigh and open the door keeping my head down not looking up once, way to anxious, I take my seat still looking down, my hair barely covering my eyes.

"What's your name" an american voice asks "my names Auden but most call me Aud because I'm fucking odd" I say without thinking and mentally face palm myself, I hear a bit of whispering "so tell us about yourself" the voice says again "well when I was 6 they diagnoses me with anxiety, 7 was depression, 8 was brought here in this shit house and well that's that. I draw, I suck though, I watch YouTube and have about 100 thousand subs as of today, I play drums, guitar, ukulele, violin, piano, sing and a lot more and that's that" I say "well I'm sorry to hear you have depression and anxiety but you draw and play multiple instruments, I used to play drums but haven't in a while, and you have a YouTube channel. That's awesome, we both have YouTube channels and are you ok with this whole being gay thing?" An Irish voice asks me "of course" I say and look up a bit to see the body's of two men. They have shirts with logos on, I reach for the pencil I always carry along with the notepad I have on me, I slip it under my head and start drawing. I finish the body's and for the head I just scribble for that, I hear more whispering and the American asks me "so are you drawing?" "Yeah" I reply simply "can I see" he asks, I scoot the drawing over to him and drop my head lower "dude this is really good!" He says "let me see" the Irish guy says "holy shit! This is great!" He says "thanks" I reply. They ask a few more questions and tell me to pack my bags, I leave the drawing and keep my head down as I walk out the door.

I open one compartment of the backpack that's hard to get to, I cut it myself and did everything to make it unnoticeable so I can his razors in it, I grab my razors and shove them in, I cover that with clothes and posters but mostly band merch, I grab my beaten up shitty iPhone and put my headphones in, I put those over my ears on turn my music on shuffle hoping for a song I want, that's what I'll be comes on and I start singing quietly along "when the tears find your eyes and your looking like life's got you down" I sing as I grab the bag and along it over my shoulder and walk down the stairs "cause everything you try just goes wrong" I sing as I near the entrance of the building where they should be waiting. I walk in me head still down and me silently whispering along, I keep my head down as we get in the car and as we arrive home "here we are" the Irish guy says, I step out of the car and finally lift my head up to see a really big house "holy shit!" I say "you like it?" The Irish guy says "hell ya dude it's epic" I say "glad you like it" he says and I grab my backpack, he walks back turned in front of me and opens the door, I see familiar green and brown hair but can't be sure, that's when he turns around and I see familiar soft features and blue eyes defined more by his bright green, recently dyed, hair. I'm shocked put into what feels like a trance "are you ok?" He yells "y-ya ya I'm uh..... I'm fine" I say and for once, for once I mean it.

I run into the house and plop onto the couch as the American walks in, red hair and all.
He walks in causing a big tan dog named chica to run over, I stand up and start petting her "hey chica bud" I whisper quietly getting her attention "you know her?" Mark asks "of course dude, I've seen her before in multiple things" I say and laugh "what's so funny?" He asks "nothing I was just thinking of woof" Mark starts laughing "that took so long to edit" he says "not as long as beautiful man goes on walk and suddenly becomes dank meme lord" I say making up a title, we both laugh "no that felt like it took years to edit" he says causing me to laugh more, I suddenly stop and just smile "you know what?" I say "huh?" Mark asks "I haven't had this fun in years, not since I was like 5. I haven't actually been happy since then" I say again without thinking and mentally face palm, I just remembered something I need to do "oh and where's my room?" I ask "oh shit! I knew I forgot something, follow me" I stand up and pet chica one last time before following Mark, we walk up the stairs and down the hall until he comes to a stop, I stand next to him as he opens the door revealing a big room "this is yours" he says and steps back "this is..... This is awesome" I say and step into the room seeing the full thing "thank you so much" I say and hug him, he hugs back and I see Sean walking up, I run to him and hug him "thank you!" I say, he hugs back "you're welcome, you said you have that YouTube channel" he says "yeah" "we have an extra room that we could set up for you to do videos in" "really?!" "Of course kiddo" "thank you both!" I say and pull them into a giant hug.

Time skip

I ended up bringing the uke I had, I start playing that's what I'll be by chestersee

"When the tears find your eyes and your feeling like life's got you down" I sing "when you feel so alone and there's nowhere to go don't you cry" I sing again "when your feeling you can't go on, cause everything you try just goes wrong" "I'll be that shelter in the rain if you say you need a sunny day, then I'll be the sun when you need it to shine" I sing and hear the door open quietly "you're a great singer dude" Sean says suddenly, I get a bit embarrassed "thanks" I say quietly "yeah your like Mark, amazing at everything and you hear him sing and your just.... Blown away I guess" he says and I smile "yeah he's a good singer" I say "yeah he's awesome, but onto the subject of dinner, so you like pizza?" He asks "yeah" I say "what kind?" "Any kind" "is just cheese ok?" "Yeah" "good, I'll get you when it's ready and we'll set up the room tomorrow" he says and I give him a thumbs up as he walks out. As soon as he's out of sight I stand up and walk to y backpack, I being that into the bathroom and shut and lock the door, I dig in the bag for the 'special' pocket, I pull a random razor out and start cutting. Once I find oh I look at the blood and wash it off, I clean them and roll my sleeves back down and put the wristbands on. I step out of the bathroom after putting the razor away and put all my clothes and stuff away, I throw my bag into the bathroom and sit on my bed playing my uke, I pull out my phone and headphones quickly putting them on and turning on a random song.

"Na Na Na Na oh oh Na Na Na Na oh oh Na Na Na oh oh" I sing "when the leader of the bad guys sang something soft and soaked in pain, I heard the echo from his secret hideaway" I sing "he must've forgot to close his door as he cranked out those dismal chords and his four walls declared him insane" I sing

The reason he's singing the judge is it just came on cause I'm listening to music and I'm a fucking tøp fan, sue me

About 20 minutes later while I'm scrolling through tumblr I hear someone yell my name, I throw my phone on the bed and walk downstairs "food" Sean yells, I hop over the railing of the staircase and run into the kitchen quickly grabbing a slice of pizza and putting it on a plate "so what about school?" Sean asks "what about it?" I ask "what do you want to do, public, private, online, homeschool?" He asks "I don't give a fuck" I say "is public ok?" He asks "yeah fine by me" I say "ok, you start next month is that good?" "Yeah" "good"

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