Song and Pic attached dedicated to my goof :*
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They say you cannot write about something unless you’ve experienced it first hand. I would agree. Unless you have felt something, you cant put feelings to words….
I wont have words to describe what I feel for you, seriously. I just cant find the right words, they could never be able to depict the depth of my feelings.
I still remember the day I met you. I had been crying the very morning and later on a call from aria and I felt better. The only highlight of the day was when I talked to you. Now, if you think I am saying that talking to you was the best part of the day and I fell in love with just one text or something, then you are wrong. You were a stranger back then and the only thing that made me smile was our crazy chat. The first entry in my daily diary regarding you was something like this- “Oh, but I did talk to this amazing guy named Mason.” That’s all, one line. It still makes amazes me how a couple of weeks after that the same diary held page after page just on you.
The days after that were like a dream for me. Every night I’d stay up till 2 or something just to wish you morning. It felt like my day wouldn’t be complete unless I wished you. And every night I would plug in my headphones and blast some soft music and my thoughts would wander to you…. A smile would grace my lips and I fell into a mysterious sleep every night.
Every morning I’d check my cell first and sure enough, there’d be a text from you. Turning on the music again I would hug the pillow in the morning 5 or 6 or something and chat with you. No doubt, a smile would be etched on my lips, sometimes a laugh erupting or sometimes a blush creeping on my cheeks.
I tried to find a reason why the butterflies would erupt. I still cant describe what that feeling is, its kinda this tingly feeling. When the first time a shiver ran down my spine, I was certain this wasn’t normal.
My life started changing the day you came in my life. Baby, the love I have for you overwhelms me, amazes me. Most of the times I find myself biting my lip while thinking about you. Just the mention of your name and a smile brightens my face. A single text from you and my heart starts beating like crazy. You make me nervous. But the good kind of nervous. And at the same time, you make me feel safe, like I could be myself without being scared.
You’d be amazed if you ever saw my laptop or my diary. My laptop has notes after notes, letters after letters, pics after pics, gifts after gifts, screenshots after screenshots, all related to only on person and that’s you. My diary has pages filled on you, pics stuck around, quotes decorating random places and simple decorations all over it.
Everytime I close my eyes thinking about you, I wish you’d hug me from behind and I’d open my eyes to find myself right next to you. The thought still runs a shiver down my spine. Every morning I find myself praying for your safety and happiness. Everytime I am with you, it feels like nothing else matters, like there’s no one else in this world except you and me.
Love…. Many people swear on the word, curse it and run away from it. Many people say its not worth it or its not true or it can never give happiness.
But it makes me smile everytime someone mentions that word. You know why? At the fact at how different definitions I have from them.
Love, according to me, is a true blessing. Love is the closest thing we have to magic and heaven. Actually, scratch that, love IS heaven. And for me, love is you. Baby, you taught me the real meaning of love, you showed me how beautiful being in love is, how amazing and wonderful this feeling is. You taught me what true love means.
I wanna spend all of my life with you. I wanna wake you up, make you breakfast, kiss you before you leave for office, send you random texts at the day, massage your head everytime you are stressed, take you on surprise dinners or prepare a candle light dinner, gift you your favourite things, kiss you everytime you are back home, kiss you at most random times, take a shower with you, tie your tie, help you find your car keys and wallet, dance with you, hang around with you, annoy you and take piggy rides with you, have random stupi fights with you, play wrestle with you and beat your ass on COD (you still gotta teach me how to play that -.- you promised -.-), draw on the walls with jake and save him from your wrath, play pranks on you and with you, take care of you and jake, spend Friday night watching movies, spend weekends in bed with you or go and hang around the beach or streets, hug you tightly when either one of us doesn’t feel good, have babies with you, watch our babies grow, play with our grandchildren, grow old with you and be one of those couples that spent all their lives together. I wanna spend all my life, till my last breath; with you.
And when I imagine spending all my life with you, you cant imagine how happy that makes me, how many feelings run in my heart.
Mason, I am in love with you. When I realised this, I was so scared although deep down I knew that youre the best thing to ever happen to me. But you took all my fears away. Everytime I talk to you, you make me forget all the bad things in my life. You are the first guy I ever fell for and I know one thing for sure, I will always be in love with you. You made me want to be the best version of myself. You made me believe in life and love. You made me feel feelings which I can only define as divine. You stole my heart. I didn’t even realise how I kept falling deeper for you. You broke my walls and started to heal me. You picked me up everytime I fell. You showed me what the feeling of home felt like; what being safe and protected meant.
Baby, I love you, and I love you so much that its almost unbelievable. And I am so scared to lose you coz if I did, I would lose myself. But you know what? Something inside me says I’d always have you by my side; that you’d always stick around; that I’ll always have your love. Something within me says we’re meant to be.
You are the only guy that matters to me cause I see my future only with you, cause I love you way beyond infinity. And please remember one thing, I have told you this hundreds of times, but that’s just cause I want you to remember it, remember that you always have me and there’s one person on this earth who loves you beyond words would ever be able to describe.
Please always remember hon, I love you and I always will.
~Love,
Dhara.
