I Need You

Goodbye London

Authors note: Hey guys! Im sorry I haven’t updated in a loooooong time :/ Ive been dealing with some stuff and I have a lot of school work. I will try to update more often.

I want to say a huge thank you to everyone that has read any part of my fanfic! It honestly means a lot J  ill be posting updates on twitter, so follow me @harry_screw_lou

I want to dedicate this chapter to @ashlynleigh14, thanks for your constant support ily! <3

Enjoy the new chapter! And please comment and vote it helps me out a lot thanks again!!!

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~Harry’s POV~

            Once I saw that Louis was asleep I unwrapped my arms that were holding him. I kissed the top of his head slightly, hoping I wouldn’t wake him. I walked over to my room to get my journal, where I like to write songs. I know im not going to be able to sleep tonight, so why not write my feelings down? I find it helpful to write them down to create a song. I still cannot believe that Louis has a self harm problem. Why didn’t he tell me he was so sad?

            I start to tear up again. Knowing my best friend was hurting himself, and there is nothing I can do to make him feel better, it’s just terrible. However I know how he feels. Maybe that will help. I have to tell him even though I don’t want to; I have to tell him the only secret nobody knows about. But how? I glance down at my journal, that’s it! I’ll write him a song!

            I don’t even need to think hard, the words just flow right out. Bottom of Form

Regrets collect like old friends

Here to relive your darkest moments

I can see no way, I can see no way

And all of the ghouls come out to play

And every demon wants his pound of flesh

But I like to keep some things to myself

I like to keep my issues drawn

It's always darkest before the dawn…

(I know its not a one direction song and Harry did not actually write it, but can we just go with it? Its going to happen quite a lot in this fanfiction so you will deal)

I’ll finish the rest over the weekend. For now I just want to cuddle with my boobear. I walk back into his room and see him sound asleep. I smirk to myself because he looks so innocent when he’s asleep, almost child-like. He looks adorable and all I want to do is wrap my arms around him and hold him, so that’s exactly what im going to do.

I crawl into his bed and I put my arms around his waist. He cuddles right into me, almost as if he’s missed me. I smile at him. Surprisingly, my eyelids start to drift close and I realize I might get some sleep tonight.

~Louis POV~

            I suddenly smell bacon, and I open my eyes confusingly. Suddenly I remember everything that went on yesterday. I remember breaking up with Eleanor, and telling her im gay. I remember Harry finding out I self harm. All these memories come at me at once and it’s too much to handle. I start to breathe rapidly.

            “Boobear, are you okay?” I hear a voice say. I look over and I see Harry sitting there, with his arms wrapped around my waist and a worried look on his face.

            I take a deep breath, swallow and say, “Yeah im fine Harry, did you sleep okay?” I asked. I wasn’t even lying, the second I saw him there, I felt better. He has an effect on me, whatever it is, I love it.