I'm fine...no you're not (complete of book one)#watty's2016

Chapter 23

Two weeks later

It's been two weeks since the hospital, and Jacob has been doing really good. I'm glad he's gonna be okay. He hasn't suffered from to many brain injuries. I'm currently making my way over to his house,  since he's on bed rest. He doesn't know I'm coming, so I hope this is a good surprise.

I walk up to his front porch and ring the doorbell. His mom answered.

"Hey Olivia, here to see Jacob", she said smiling.

"Yeah, I wanted to surprise him with a visit", I said returning a smile.

"Aw how sweet, he's upstairs lying down", she said moving out of the way.

"Okay thanks"

"No problem"

I walked up the stairs and I could hear quite talking. I opened the door to see Jacob and lily kissing. I felt as if my hole world shattered. I just left and I slammed the door on the way out. I could hear running someone running after me, but I just kept running and crying. Until Jacob caught up too me.

"Olivia", he said panting.

"Leave me Alone!", I said/yelled.

"It's not what it looks like"

"That's what they always say"

"Olivia-"

I cut him off. "Listen to me, I'm sorry I'm not perfect, I'm sorry I cut, I'm sorry I want to give up, I'm sorry I want to die, I'm sorry I hide my feelings and say I'm fine, I'm sorry I get jealous, I'm sorry I'm not pretty or good enough, I'm sorry I'm not the most exciting, but what I'm mostly sorry for is trusting someone you", and with that I left there in tears.

I walked into my house and up to my room and just started crying. I plugged in my headphones and turned on jar of hearts.

"Jar Of Hearts"

I know I can't take one more step towards you

'Cause all that's waiting is regret

Don't you know I'm not your ghost anymore

You lost the love I loved the most

I learned to live half alive

And now you want me one more time

And who do you think you are?

Runnin' 'round leaving scars

Collecting your jar of hearts

And tearing love apart

You're gonna catch a cold

From the ice inside your soul

So don't come back for me

Who do you think you are?

I hear you're asking all around

If I am anywhere to be found

But I have grown too strong

To ever fall back in your arms

And I've learned to live half alive

And now you want me one more time

And who do you think you are?

Runnin' 'round leaving scars

Collecting your jar of hearts

And tearing love apart

You're gonna catch a cold

From the ice inside your soul

So don't come back for me

Who do you think you are?

And it took so long just to feel alright

Remember how to put back the light in my eyes

I wish I had missed the first time that we kissed

'Cause you broke all your promises

And now you're back

You don't get to get me back

And who do you think you are?

Runnin' 'round leaving scars

Collecting your jar of hearts

And tearing love apart

You're gonna catch a cold

From the ice inside your soul

So don't come back for me

Don't come back at all

And who do you think you are?

Runnin' 'round leaving scars

Collecting your jar of hearts

Tearing love apart

You're gonna catch a cold

From the ice inside your soul

Don't come back for me

Don't come back at all

Who do you think you are?

Who do you think you are?

Who do you think you are?

'I blame myself for trusting him', I thought.