Anxiety. I can't even begin to describe how awful my anxiety has been getting lately. The fear that strikes my heart and my brain everytime you look at me, with hatred burning through your beautiful eyes, is indescribable. It terrifies me. Every time I have to see you it makes me feel so out of place and you genuinely terrify me. I can't describe it, yet here I am trying.
When I begin to over think it, anxiety grabs me by my neck and twists it, strangling me and choking me. It attacks my weak brain, my mind. It rids of the air inside my lungs and I find I'm gasping for breath. It makes tsunamis appear in my lifeless eyes and gush out upon my cheeks, leaving my eyes bloodshot. It makes my heart ache as though someone is squeezing it. I'm helpless. I'm helpless to this monster of anxiety that consumes me, that doesn't let me live happily. No one gets it. No one understands. They don't understand how difficult it is to stay positive, when there is a constant weight in your mind of this creature called anxiety.
Every single day, I wake up with a lump in my throat and anxiety flowing through my veins. I hate going to school, it makes me anxious. They all walk past me, giving me dirty looks. Maybe I'm just being paranoid, I don't know. But I feel nauseous and hysterical when we make the briefest of eye contact, all I feel is the hatred radiating from you onto me, in sharp, painful stabs.
Anxiety, a monster, an awful awful monster, which lives in my brain.
A/N - A lot of this is indirect to a few people, I'm sorry it's negative, I'll be positive in my next one!! ~B
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RandomThis whole thing is just me being indirect,, and my thoughts and feelings bc I've been through a lot lately so ya kno
