Broken (Nathan Sykes fanfic)

Chapter 35

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"Get up," Brooke groaned.

I shook my head, "no. I'm sleeping." I mumbled.

"You can sleep later, come on you missed class the past few days just get up. You don't have to go to class today but just wash or something because you are starting to look like a zombie," Brooke said.

I rolled my eyes, "way to make me feel better."

Brooke laughed, "that's what I'm trying to do since you have been a zombie since Tuesday," Brooke said and opened the curtains.

I groaned again before covering the pillow over my head, "just let me pity myself alone," I snapped.

Brooke took the pillow off my head and I flipped her the finger, "you have been doing that for the past couple of days now get up. Don't make me hit you with the pillow," Brooke warned.

I stayed where I was, "fine, your choice," Brooke mumbled before hitting my back with the pillow.

I turned over and she hit me again, I glared at her as I sat up and she gave me an innocent smile, "good you're up," she grinned.

I ran a hand through my knotty hair, "no thanks to you. Why can't you just leave me to sleep all day like I have been doing?" I whined.

Brooke put my pillow back on my bed before she went over to her dresser and finished getting ready for school, "because Lexi ever since you and Nathan had a falling out you have been depressing. Just talk to him." Brooke suggested.

My eyes widened, "I can't! Brooke I told you what happened and he hates me," I said.

Brooke rolled her eyes, "I'm pretty sure he doesn't. Look, he has a temper believe me I know but it's been a couple of days I'm sure he is calm now."

I shook my head, "no way I'm not seeing him." I said annoyed.

Brooke sighed, "fine just get dressed or something if you aren't going to class today. I need to go, I'll see you later." Brooke said as she stood up.

I waved a little to her before she left the dorm room. I sighed before getting out of my bed. My legs ached a little as I walked over to the cupboard. I got out a pair of ripped jeans with a plain grey t-shirt also new underwear and laid them on the bed. I grabbed my wash stuff with my towels before heading out the dorm and going into the showers. I got into a empty shower before stripping and then turning on the water, the warm water soothed my tense muscles making me relaxed. I shaved under my arms and my legs before washing my hair and body. Once I was done I got out the shower as I wrapped a towel around me. I headed over to the sinks and brushed my teeth before brushing my hair. I wiped any water off my face before adding moisturizer. When I was done I grabbed my things before walking back to the dorms.

I locked the dorm door before closing the curtains and then changed into my underwear when the door rattled before opening. I froze looking at the person at the door.

"Get out!" I shouted and grabbed my towel quickly wrapping it around my body.

He finished looking me up and down before a small smirk was on his face, "harsh," he said and walked in.

I blushed and looked away from him, "go away Nathan," I mumbled.

"Why are you still self conscious?" he asked confused.

"Why are you here?" I retorted and looked at him trying to stop blushing.

Nathan raised an eyebrow, "you haven't been in history for a couple of days and when I didn't see you today I came to see you."

I looked at him confused, "but you hate me," I said confused.

He rolled his eyes, "I don't hate you. I just get mixed emotions about you," he winked.

I rolled my eyes and tightened the towel around me, "do you mind err leaving so I can get dressed?" I asked feeling my neck heat up.

Nathan shrugged, "I don't mind watching."

I glared at him and he rolled his eyes before holding his hands up in mock surrender, "fine you have five minutes before I'm coming in again I don't care if you aren't dressed." He smirked before walking back out and closing the door behind him.

I took the towel off before getting my jeans on and then putting on some deodorant before slipping on my t-shirt. I went to my dresser and grabbed my hair brushed and finished brushing my damp hair when Nathan walked in. He looked a bit upset.

"What's wrong with you?" I asked confused.

"I was hoping you were naked," he muttered with a small pout.

I rolled my eyes and put my hairbrush down while Nathan leaned against the doorframe. I looked at him not knowing what to say.

"I'm sorry," I blurted out.

He raised an eyebrow still not saying anything but he chewed his lip ring.

"I'm sorry I didn't tell you. I wanted to but I couldn't and I thought I could handle it on my own. I really am sorry Nathan. Is Jess ok?" I asked quickly.

He nodded his head, "she's fine. Pissed but she'll get over it."

"So she doesn't know?" I asked.

Nathan shook his head, "all she knows is that I beat the crap out of him. Lexi, does Austin have something over you?" Nathan asked seriously.

I thought about telling him about what happened before shaking my head, "nope, what was Austin talking to you about anyway?" I asked him.

He shook his head, "nothing. It doesn't matter." He replied stiffly.

I didn't believe him but I didn't want another argument again, for one reason I think this relationship is built on lies. I guess it is.

"Ok," I replied softly and looked down at my hands.

"Lexi... I... I erm, about Tuesday," he mumbled. I looked up and he rubbed the back of his neck, I stood up and walked over to him.

"I know, don't worry Nathan it doesn't matter," I said quietly.

He looked at me before taking my hand, I looked down at him lacing our fingers together. He brought my hand up to his lips and softly placed a kiss on my knuckles making me blush slightly before he let our hands drop.

"What do you want to do today?" he asked changing the subject.

I shrugged, "I'm behind on school work." I mumbled.

Nathan chuckled, "never thought I'll hear you say that. You haven't missed much just people getting excited for the Christmas ball," he mumbled and walked into the dorm and pulled me against him.

"Are you going to the ball?" I asked.

He looked at me as he chewed his lip ring before he started laughing, "you are funny babe," he said.

I but my lip, "I was... I was being serious," I said.

Nathan stopped laughing and looked at me, "oh right... are you going to the party tomorrow?" he asked quickly changing the subject. Nathan let go of me and walked over to my bed and lied down on it. I rolled my eyes before closing the dorm door and went and sat down on my bed near him.

"I don't know," I answered.

He sat up, "come on babe. I'll be there." He winked.

I rolled my eyes, "aren't you getting a tattoo tomorrow?" I asked him and picked off a loose thread on my t-shirt.

He nodded his head, "yeah but I'm still going to the party."

I looked at him, "I don't know. Maybe. But Nathan why won't you go to the Christmas ball?" I asked him.

He rolled his eyes, "because one it's probably boring and two Paul has a ball with his work every year so I get forced to attend that one but I'm going to ditch it this year."

I pouted slightly, "please go to the Christmas ball with me?"

He shook his head, "no Lexi." He snapped annoyed.

I sighed, "fine I'll find someone else to go with," I mumbled.

"You do that," he said rolling his eyes.

"Maybe I'll ask that Blake guy," I said slowly and went to stand up but Nathan grabbed my wrist and pulled me on top of him.

"No. You are mine, not his. If he comes near you again I will not be responsible for my actions," Nathan said his voice getting lower.

My eyes widened as he placed his hands on my waist. I placed my hands either side of his head to keep me up above him and blushed when he bit down on his lip ring.

"Say you are mine," he murmured.

"Nath this isn't some vampire chick flick book," I teased.

He chuckled a little before pushing down on my waist to bring me down against him, I looked at him with wide eyes. Nathan leaned towards me and pressed his lips roughly against mine with his cold lip ring digging into my lip. It took me a second to register what was going on before I began moving my lips in sync with his. My hands worked their way around his neck and I gripped the back of his hair lightly. One of Nathan's hand ran down my leg before he placed them low on my back. His lips moved from mine to my cheek in careful kisses before returning to mine once again. I tugged on his hair slightly and he moaned slightly. My face flushed red and I felt my neck heat up and I pulled away.

Nathan was laying under me while he breathed deeply. I sat up straight and turned my face making my hair cover me while I tried to cool off.

"Wow," Nathan said and gently rubbed my side.

I just hummed in response and concentrated on getting my breathing back to normal. I shouldn't be acting this way, who knows how long it will be until he does something to hurt me again. I need to stop.

"Who knew you could kiss like that," Nathan chuckled.

I closed my eyes taking deep breaths, "look at me," Nathan said his voice suddenly harsh. I tensed up and felt him grip my waist, "Alexis look at me," he snapped.

I turned my head and faced him and saw his perusing gaze before looking down making my hair cover my face, "what's wrong?" he asked his voice softer than before but it still held that dark edge to it.

"Nothing," I murmured quietly.

"It isn't nothing. Tell me," he ordered.

I looked at him biting my lip, "it really is nothing." I muttered.

Nathan frowned, "we are going somewhere." He said suddenly grinning.

"You are bipolar," I said bluntly.

He chuckled, "we are going out. Now." He smirked.

I got off him and Nathan got off my bed before grabbing a random jacket from my cupboard and throwing it to me. I caught it with ease before going over to my cupboard and putting it back and then I got out my black leather jacket. Nathan rolled his eyes before giving me my converse.

"What are we doing?" I asked him as I slipped on my black converse.

"I know I'm a shit boyfriend but I'm new to all this crap," he said.

I rolled my eyes, "you are crazy," I laughed.

"I prefer spontaneous." He said cheekily before grabbing my hand. I managed to grab my phone before he pulled me out of my dorm.

We headed down the flight of stairs before going out into the snow, I slipped but Nathan managed to catch me.

"Clutz," he teased and helped me up before kissing my cheek and we walked towards his car, "I see the hickey I left has gone," Nathan smirked.

My hand went up to my neck and I still felt a small bump before I glared at him, "it wasn't funny," I muttered and got into the passenger seat.

"It was," Nathan replied and closed the passenger door before going over to the drivers seat.

He got in and turned on the heater as well as the radio before he began driving out of the campus, "where are we going anyway?" I asked confused as I warmed up.

He looked at me, "somewhere," he smirked.

"That really doesn't sound good," I mumbled.

He chuckled at me, "hey it's me you should trust me!" he defended.

"Yeah that's why I don't trust you because it's you," I joked.

He grinned at me and pulled his lip ring between his teeth. Something about him I craved, it's almost as if I craved the danger and darkness he brought with him. He was different, mysterious and I liked it.

"I'm really not that bad," he admitted and gripped the steering wheel.

I glanced at him, "you come across as you are," I said softly.

He tightened his grip on the steering wheel making his knuckles white, "I know. It's just... shit happened." He muttered.

I nodded my head, "I know," I murmured.

We stayed quiet for the rest of the drive to wherever he was taking me. I was conflicted on whether I should be scared or to just go with it.

"We're here," Nathan announced and quickly stopped the car.

I looked around and noticed we were at a crazy golf place. I looked at Nathan confused, "crazy golf? It's snowing also it's closed." I said confused.

Nathan winked at me before getting out the car. He came over to the passenger side and opened the car before holding his arm out. I took it and got out the car careful not to slip over.

"You are joking right?" I asked him as he closed the passenger door. He chuckled and locked his car before getting out some keys and walked over to the entrance. I groaned before following after him, trying not to stand in some slush on the ground.

Nathan unlocked the door to go in and turned on the lights to the crazy golf little park. I rolled my eyes at him.

"Are you coming in or what?" he asked.

"Who did you kill to get the keys?" I asked bluntly and folded my arms over my chest and shivered slightly.

Nathan rolled his eyes, "I know a guy. Come on Lexi, pick a club and let's go play crazy golf," he grinned and picked up a red club.

I looked around before entering the entrance and picked up a blue club while Nathan got two balls. We made our way outside and Nathan unlocked the gate using another key, and we went into the crazy golf mini park. Nathan pressed something and all the windmills and monkeys started moving before he looked at me with a cheeky grin which seemed strange considering his bad boy reputation.

"Who knew Alexis Ryan would break into a crazy golf park," Nathan said sarcastically.

I glared at him, "I will leave," I threatened.

He rolled his eyes, "no you won't. Come on, I'll even let you go first." He smirked.

I sighed before nodding my head and went over to the first hole. It was an easy one just need to get the ball in the hole. I put the ball down and angled my body with my club before tapping the ball gently and it went into the hole.

"Well done," Nathan said sarcastically before kissing my cheek.

I blushed a little before going over to the hole and getting the pink ball out. I waited and watched Nathan score the hole in one as well. He retrieved his ball before coming over to me and stole a quick kiss from my lips before heading through the light snow to the second hole.

I smiled a little and rubbed my arms as I followed him.

"You can go first gorgeous," he said and winked at me.

I stuck my tongue out at him and put my ball down, "who knew bad boy Nathan Sykes would be playing crazy golf in the snow?" I said sarcastically and aimed my club before tapping the ball to go through a big windmill. I stood to the side and saw it go straight into the hole making me grin.

"Hey babe no one gets told, since I have a reputation to keep," he joked and bit his lip ring while I fetched the ball.

I held a hand to my heart, "I swear," I teased and watched him have his go. When it got into the hole he got the ball before coming over to me with a smirk.

"I'll hold you to that," he said his voice suddenly husky.

I choked slightly and he chuckled before walking pass me and headed to the third hole. How am I going to manage twelves holes when he's making me feel like this on the second one?

I took a shaky breath before following him to the third one. This one seemed a little more difficult, you had to go through a monkey that had arms swinging down which could make the ball bounce off. I put the ball down and looked at the swinging monkey trying to time when I tap the ball. When I did Nathan coughed making me jump and the ball got knocked away by one of the monkeys swinging arms. I turned and glared at him he just stood there smiling.

"Bastard," I mumbled and got my ball before putting it back where it should be and angled my body again.

"You aren't doing it right," Nathan muttered and dropped his ball and club on the ground before walking over to me and wrapped his arms around me. My breathing suddenly became quicker.

Nathan chuckled at my reaction and I blushed a little before he placed his hands over mine, "hold it like this," he murmured and moved my hands before running one hand up my arm and angling it, "three... two... one... And swing," he whispered and swung the club with me making it go through the monkey with ease.

I didn't check if it had made it into the hole I just stayed where I was. He drives me crazy, no matter how much I want to I just can't shake him. I don't think I want to either.

"See?" Nathan teased before pulling away.

I closed my eyes, I will not give him the reaction he wants. I opened my eyes again before walking over to get the ball. I picked the ball up from the hole before turning around Nathan was in front of me.

"This game is boring now," he murmured and grabbed my waist pulling me close to him.

I hummed as an answer and dropped the club and ball to the ground before Nathan roughly pressed his lips against mine. The way his lip ring dug into my own lips felt natural almost. I wrapped my arms around his neck and gripped the back of his head, gently tugging on his hair. Nathan moaned slightly and I blushed again before he pulled away.

"As much as I would like to fuck you on a mini golf course, I don't think its appropriate for anyone passing by," he said breathing deeply.

My face heated up at his comment and I pulled away and smacked his chest, "ugh," I groaned.

Nathan raised an eyebrow, "what did I do now?" he asked annoyed.

I rolled my eyes, "just you being you," I muttered before picking up the golf club and ball started walking back towards the entrance.

"Don't walk away from me," he shouted angrily.

I carried on walking and went into the entrance and put my club and ball away. Nathan did the same except his were a lot more rougher and he threw them. He grabbed my arm stopping me from going and glared at me.

"I try being nice and you act like a bitch," he snapped.

I raised my eyebrows, "me? Acting like a bitch? Please! Whatever Nathan, you are a dick." I snapped.

"You like me," he said cockily.

I groaned, "do not." I lied.

"You do. Otherwise why else would you still be here after every time I fuck everything up? Plus you are my girlfriend or whatever," he smirked.

I looked at him before I started laughing, Nathan cracked a smile as well before pulling me into a hug. He kissed the top of my head.

"You are crazy," I mumbled into his chest.

"Like I said before, I prefer spontaneous," he smirked and pulled his lip ring between his teeth before leaning down and pressing his lips against mine.

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