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Prologue

"Happy 10th anniversary, mahal"

I remember it again. It's playing on my mind again. Why did it have to end? It wasn't much of a tragic ending (like, literally) but figuratively it was ------ crushed heart, shattered dreams, unsure future, and a broken vow! Can you think of more tragic than that?

The ten years together was close to a fairytale which started with a "once upon a time" and ended with ". . . and they lived happily ever after."

Until it had to end but definitely not with ". . . and they lived happily ever after."

He broke up with me without any warning. He left me with only a letter . . .

Lei,

I have a few things to tell you. I have been in deep thought for quite a while now. I am in a battle: to stay or to leave. If I choose to stay, it would mean making you happy for the rest of your life but would make me sad and unsure for the rest of my life. If I choose to leave, it would mean hurting you (maybe for a while, but hopefully not for long especially when you learn to accept the reality) but would definitely make me find myself . I have been doubting myself lately, and I don't want to be unfair to you.

I guess I have to accept the fact that we are slowly drifting apart, that I am starting to fall inlove with another girl, that I feel what we have been doing these past few months are routinary! I am so sorry. I should have told you, I should have been honest with you, I should have been braver!

Much as I wanted to end this not in this way, but I don't know how and where to start. I can't bear seeing you breakdown in front of me. I might take back everything I would tell you.

I am sorry! I am wishing you the best. I wish you'd be happy and you'd find a guy who would love you better. I am not that guy.

I am happy wherever I am now, hope you'd be happy for me too!

Brad

That's it! It hurts so bad. It hurts like hell. It hurts too much, beyond that I could bear.

Never thought I would feel this devastated in my life. "It's me, not you" is b***s***! Don't you think so?