"But you don't look depressed."
"I'm always depressed I'm just good at hiding it."
What is depression exactly. Everyone knows it's a mental illness, but what is it. I'll tell you what it is. It's like your drowning and no one sees you. Your smiling and your laughing but in the inside you screaming and crying. It's wanting to go out and do something but staying in bed instead. It's fighting with everyone you love because you can't handle anything. It's failing classes, and skipping school just to catch a break. It's remembering how carefree you used to be and missing it. Depression is a lot like there's a monster in your head and you can't get it. It's a minster that says horrible things like "they don't really care." "You've had a good day so far but remember I'm still around." Depression is fighting for your happiness everyday if your life because you want to be able to be happy. Depression is waking up and not moving from your bed for a good 2-3 hours because the world is unsafe. Depression is being sensitive and crushing your own heart. Depression are the voices that never go away. Depression eats you alive a tears your apart. Depression take every piece of who you are and changes it. Depression makes you a new person. Not a better you but a different you. Depression is the voice that tells you no one wants you hear. Depression is the voice that tells you to avoid your family and friends. Depression is the voice inside of you that reminds you, how horrible of a person you are.
Anxiety is like your suffocating. Anxiety is being to nervous to answer a telephone call or to call someone because you might say something stupid. Anxiety is meeting new people and being to afraid to talk. Anxiety is panic attacks that cause your body to shake and your tears to fall.
And living with both well that's pure hell.
