Airplanes and Airports

Chapter 17

You could be happy and I wouldn't know.

I wish you were happy when you left. People say that when people go all of a sudden, there would be a lot of things left unsaid. And it's sad that those things would just be left there -- in thin air. Hanging. Looming. But never said.

I guess, we have a weird bond. You and I. Not even the closest friends would have this kind of bond. But, you've given me a reason to live and to die at the same time. I can't blame you; nobody could ever blame you. I know, you didn't like what happened. They've made me change and they've made me miserable. You wouldn't want your poppet to be miserable, right?

I ask of one thing, save me again. Please.

A week passed and I didn't see Seth dun sa store. I don't know if umiiwas na sya because of what I did or paranoid lang ako kaya naiisip ko to. I miss seeing his surprised-slash-happy look. Whatever that look or expression is, nakakamiss makita eh.

Colton started ignoring me na din. I don't know why. I'm sort of thinking na may nagawa ako or I said something that threw him off. Ang weird kasi eh, bigla na lang he wouldn't talk to me unless necessary. Kat wouldn't even tell me what happened kung bakit ayaw akong kausapin ni Colton.

It's quite difficult when you're clueless, you know? Di mo alam what you did or what you said to make people ignore you. Wouldn't you question yourself kung may ganon sayo, diba?

Katrina poked me with the other end of her pen. We were doing this seatwork for Philo class.

"You wanna drink later?" She asked. "Papaalam naman kita kay Tita eh. Don'tcha worry, cousin."

I nodded once. "Where ba?"

"There's this bar sa may Makati. Hades. Alam ko ung friend ni Kuya King ung owner eh. Sila Louie?"

"Okay. I'll crash na lang sa place nyo. Kasi, obviously, we'll get stoned nanaman. Tayo lang ba? No Colty?"

She sighed and shook her head 'no'. I sighed audibly, too, and went back to finishing my Philo seatwork. What can I do pa ba? Di ko naman pwedeng ipilit ung gusto ko kung ayaw naman nya. I just never expected him to be like this towards me. Ang gulo eh. I never did anything to him naman tapos ganyan sya.

Because of overthinking, I felt the urge to spend. Kaya after nung class, I asked Kat if she wanted to go shopping muna. 8pm pa naman kami aalis eh. And 3pm naman natapos ung class namin. She said yes naman and she asked permission na from Mom.

We went to Glorietta and splurged. First, we went to Forever 21. We bought matching tops and other stuff. I wish, I have enough money pa for later. Then, we went to Bershka. If I enumerate the places we went to, I'm pretty sure aabot ako ng 2 days. But, we had fun naman. I guess, eto talaga yung meaning  nung 'shop-til-you-drop' eh. Although, I do this every now and then, I can't help but wonder pa din why I never get tired of doing this.

We went to their place to get ready for our 'escapade'. Like what Tito Mike said, they let her do whatever she wants to do. I never asked her pa naman what happened to her that made her like this. I mean, alam ko namang wild sya before pa, pero, we share this misery that makes us do these things and yet, we aren't happy pa din. Something like that.

"What happened to Colton ba? Ba't galit sakin?", I finally asked after I showered.

She shrugged. "Sabi nya lang naman kasi sakin, di muna sya sasama satin eh."

"Why?"

"Ewan ko dun. May dine-date yata na girl from Music din eh. Baka daw magselos ka eh." she smirked.