Pleased & Deceived

Prolong

I stared at the hole in the ground in which my mothers lifeless body laid in peacefully, daring myself not to cry, she would be much happier if I didn't cry she said so herself plenty of time when she fall really ill.

"Do not grieve to much over me Annabelle when this is all over ok I can't say not at all because I know that will be a bit to hard for your soft heart, but do it for me sweetie it would make me so much happier to know you've moved on and I don't mean after how many years I mean from the beginning and do all the stuff you teenagers do nowadays, try not get arrested, couldn't say I didn't though, live a little you're only sixteen life is short... And one more thing Promise me you will do as I say Belly." My mom said wearily, out of the blue addressing me by the nickname I hated but only loved when she said it, as I laid down besides her on the bed deep in thoughts about the worst, I debated if I should pretend I was sleeping but went against it knowing she would know I was faking.

That alone what she had said made me want to cry I didn't want to think about when she wasn't here anymore, 'when this is all over' it felt like it would be all over for me aswell, she was all I had left not that there was anyone else.

I cried, I cried like a big fat baby

"I- I can't-I- you- C-ccan't-"

"I know you can you're a strong  girl, I know it's selfish of me baby to ask such thing from you but promise me please," She ran her trembling thumb across my cheek wiping the tears away that had fallen, I took hold of her hand a gave it a gentle squeeze and squeezed my eyes shut wishing for all of this to just be a dream even though I know it was all reality.

"I was asked today by someone what would my death wish be and I guess this is it and of course, make sure my grandchildren know who their awesome grandma Monica was tell them all the wild stories you've heard you, hear me!" she let out a very soft laugh which made her cough a little.

'Death wish' it was a lot to take in more then a lot, death that is. Even though I was preparing for this I always hoped she would get cured

"Promise?"

I hesitated for a while before I knew the words that fell out of my mouth.

"Promise."

"Phew I thought you was going to say no I didn't want to have to say the other part." She smiled weakly.

"What's that? you are going to haunt me?"

"No I was thinking more never forgive you then haunt you and your family and not kill you just so you can go through the torture." She tried her best to grin at me.

"Thanks mom thanks a bunch." I peck her on the cheek smiling.

"You're welcome. I love you so much Belly."

"I love you soo too mom."

**

That was two weeks ago, the day she pasted away the day I was left without her.

I gazed over at two women who were talking about my mother like they were friends with her and they probably don't even know a thing about her, this made my blood boil even more then it was already boiling from the fact that nobody really cared. I drew my gaze to the floor and listened to what they had to say.

"She was such a nice lady." Yes she was but did you really know that or are you just saying that because that's what everyone says when someone they don't really know dies.

"Yes she was it's so sad." Fake.

"I know," Sure you know you're going to go back home and move as if nothing had ever happened today.

I walked away from them not wanting to hear anymore of their fake conversion

"Annabelle sweetie I'm so sorry about your mom I really am just hear-"

"I don't want to hear you out, leave me alone." I rolled my eyes at my aunt also know as my mothers sister.

"Please Anna just.." She pulled me over to the corner of the house so no one could hear us, "Just.. Hear me out please Anna.."

"No."

"You're coming to live with me so you're going to have to hear me out at one stage." She put her hand on her hip pushed out her lips a tiny bit, a gesture that reminded me of my mom I looked away willing myself not cry. "Anna.. It's ok it will be alright." She tried to pull me in for a hug but I snatched my hands away.

"You don't know that." I whispered as I felt a few tears slip down cheeks I wiped them away as fast as they fell.

"Yes I do, like your mom always said you're a strong girl-"

"Don't talk about my mom like you cared!" I snapped drawing a few eyes in our direction. She dragged me to the front yard away from everyone.

"Like I care? Of course I care Anna!" She exclaimed,

"No you do not!"

"She wasn't just your mom she was also a daughter, a friend to many and a S-sister!" She cried her voice cracking when she said sister.

"Exactly! So where was all of you when she was lying on her fúcking goddamn death bed!" I was wondering this from the beginning everyone was always around her but when she Fell sick they all fled when she needed them most. And I know she never spoke about it because she wanted to keep me happy and not just myself but also herself.

Not one visit did they give when she was lying on her death bed not one.

"Annabelle I-"

"Save it I don't want to hear it!" I cried, walking away.

"I didn't know.. She told me not to visit her." I halted in my steps without turning around to face her.

"You knew she was very sick and you still didn't visit, I listened that day when I wasn't supposed to, when she was on her death bed she told you not to visit her because you all abandoned her already," I turned around to face her tears running down her face.

"Even though she told you not to come she didn't really want that, you should of known that since you was supposed to be her dearest sister and who on earth would not visit their family when they literally told them they was dying, who? Someone who doesn't give two shíts. I watched and held her cry herself to sleep pretending to not know the reason and the next morning she acted as if nothing had happened, but you know how mom is she doesn't really like to let people know how she really feels."

With that I turned on my heels stormed away having no idea where I was going
"A-anna.."

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