The Side He Doesn't See

Chapter 1

Mitch
"Goodbye!" Scott and I sing into the camera. He gets up to turn it off "Mitchy do you mind editing this? I'm going to go out to dinner with Alex tonight and I don't want to be late, it's our 9 month anniversary!" Scott says in an upbeat tone. "Yeah I'll edit it, I guess" I say the last part in a quiet tone so he doesn't hear me "Thank you, Mitchy, I love you!" he says walking out the door, closing it on his way out. I sigh once he's gone and put my head in my hands. I always wish whenever he says that, he means not in a "We've been best friends forever" manner, but in a "I want you to be mine forever" kind of way. I haven't always been in love with him the way I am now though, I've had a boyfriend or two in the past, but none of those relationships turned out well. Whenever we joke on camera about "Scömìche is real!" I always have to put on my best fake smile, because, well, it hurts to say that even if it's just in a joking way. Scott's with Alex, he's happy, so I'm happy... sort of. I'd rather be stuck in the friend-zone with him the rest of my life than try to make a move on him and ruin our friendship. Our friendship is the only thing that is keeping me alive right now, all the hate I'm getting for "being gay" and "losing too much weight" is getting to me. You would think I'd be used to it now, but no. I thought when I lost a lot of weight, people would like me better, but it turns out, it's basically the same. I still get hate, and it affects me more than most people think. I lost all that weight for Scott, but he treats me as if I gained 50 pounds instead. He doesn't call me 'beautiful' or 'gorgeous' anymore, which just makes me even more upset. Scott used to be there for me when I was sad or just needed someone to talk to, but ever since he got together with Alex, it's always been about him. "I'm going to hang out with Alex, sorry for cancelling tonight!" "I'm going to stay the night at Alex's place, sorry for cancelling girls night!" "I can't record Superfruit today, Alex invited me to dinner, sorry!" He practically lives at Alex's place, I don't even know why we bought such a big house together when Scott isn't even there half the time. He's probably going to move in with Alex soon and I'll just be here all alone, with no one. I've pretty much gotten used to him canceling stuff now, so I don't even make plans anymore.

We haven't posted on Superfruit for over a month, people have gotten worried, so we just did a quick 4-minute Q&A to calm them down. The rest of PTX and I just finished the tour in Europe about 3 weeks ago, and I couldn't miss it more. One, because of meeting all the fans, two, because Alex wasn't there to take up all of Scott's time. So we actually hung out like we did when Alex wasn't around, and that made me really happy. But, as soon as we got back, it was just like before.

After two hours of silently crying in my, well, I guess our living room, I get up and try to find Wyatt, "Wy Wy!" I shout around the house "Where are you, my baby?" He comes out of the laundry room purring at me. "There you are, my sweet boy." I say as I pick him up and take him to my bedroom. I set him on my bed and turn on my flat-screen TV. I cuddle up to him as I scroll through Netflix. Five hours and two seasons of Orange Is The New Black later, I start to get tired. I turn my head to look at my alarm clock. "1:09am" I sigh, he's probably staying the night at Alex's place, as usual, I think to myself. I turn off the TV and go to the bathroom to get ready for bed. I look through my pajama drawer, but find nothing. Scott won't mind if I borrow a t-shirt of his, right? I've done it a million times before. I go to his bedroom and get an over sized t-shirt from his laundry bin. I like the smell of him, so I didn't get a clean one. I throw it on and go back to my room. I turn off my lights and pull up my covers. I fall asleep almost immediately.

I wake up to someone opening the front door downstairs. I check the alarm clock, it reads "3:34am". I take in a deep breath, it can't be Scott, can it? I grab my pepper spray from my drawer that I've always kept for emergencies and have my phone just incase I need to call the police. I quietly walk down the steps and I start hearing soft sobs coming from the living room. As I make my way there the sons start getting louder and louder. I peek through the door way. It's him. I put my pepper spray down "Scott?" I say quietly, trying not to scare him. He jumps a little the looks up from his lap. Tears are filled in his eyes. I instantly frown and furrow my eyebrows. "Oh my god! What happened?! Are you okay?!" I walk up to him and sit on the couch with him. He looks down, not wanting to meet my eyes. "Scotty? What happened?" He doesn't answer me and cries even more. I gently but firmly grab his chin, and face him towards me. I am surprised at my sudden bold move, and he also seems that way. "Tell me, what's the matter?" I ask in a soft voice. He starts sobbing uncontrollably, "I-I, w-w-we-we broke up Mitch!"

{AN- Well, that was the first update! Thank you guys so much for reading! It would mean the world if you would vote & share this story, it is my first one! If you guys have any questions, either contact me on here, my Instagram (ptx.addict), or my Twitter (ptxholly). I will hopefully have a regular update schedule once I get into the story, but for now it will be all over the place lol. Again, thank you so much for reading, love you guys!
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-holly