I just said that i had feelings for Trevor.
But i now know i only like him as a friend
I only met him today.
Maybe i was going soft for him, because he's nice to me.
But i can't trust yet. He could turn out to be a total dick like everybody else.
Our stop was next. Trevor and I were still playing 21 questions.
The bus came to an abrupt stop, which hinted me it was time to get off the bus. I grabbed both Mayve and me backpack and headed off the bus. I handed Mayve her backpack and continued walking towards the house.
"Who were you texting on the bus?" Mayve asked me
"Um.... just a boy i met at school..." i told her... being completely honest with her. I never liked lying to her....
"Is he niced to you?" she asked me
"I don't know yet?" i told her
"I hope he is, maybe he's your Prince Charming.. like the one in the book, you read me when i was younger..." she told her... I made me think, does she think about those things. What if she knows what happens with Jeff and my mother.
"Don't worry Mayve... Just promise me one thing..."
"What?" she asked me
"When it's time to go, you will." I hoped she couldn't hear the pain and sadness in my voice.
"Okay Delilah" she said. Maybe she would leave when i got her a way out. I've been looking at adoption centres and orphanages homes. I never thought that it would come to this. I thought i would be able to find a family memeber, a friend or even a nice couple who lived a couple of towns away. Enough to get her away from all of this shit. Enough to get her away from MY hell of a life.
"Delilah are you okay" i snap back to my senses when Mayve calls for me
"Yah...What?" i asked her
"Nothing, what were you thinking about???" she asked me
"Don't worry about it.... Okay, were almost home."
We arrived at the house... My stomach dropped each time i looked at the house. It brings back to many horrible memories. I just want to forget them all.
I knocked on the door.
I saw the doorknob twistt.
It opened to reveal my druck, stupid excuse of a mother. Leaning against the doorframe with a bottle of Whiskey in her hand.
"Oh... Mayve go uptairs. Your sister and I need to have a little talk..." she said. I saw Mayve look up at me. I just sent her a look and sent her upstairs.
"You needed to see me..." i say to my mother as politely as I can
"Yes. Sit down..." she said pointing to a seat next to her. I sat down. Why was she being so nice to me???
"Um... Delilah... You and your sister are going to live with your father..." she said looking down
"What... Why?" i asked her... maybe this was my way out
"BECAUSE I DONT WANT YOU FUCKING RETARDS ANYMORE. YOU MESSY, STUPID AND JEFF IS GETTING SICK AND TIERD OF YOU TREATING HIM BADLY AND NOT RESPECTING HIM!!!" she screamed at me
"NOT RESPECTING YOU???!!!" I asked her, getting angry
"I WORK MY BUTT OFF FOR YOU GUYS. I CLEAN,COOK AND RAISE MAYVE ALL MY MYSELF! SHE'S YOUR DAUGHTER AND I BET YOU DON'T EVEN REMEMBER HER BIRTHDAY. I BET YOU DON'T EVEN KNOW HOW OLD I AM!!! YOUR SUCH A HORRIBLE MOTHER!!! ANYONE WOULD BE BETTER THEN YOU! I'VE DONE SO MUCH AND GAVE UP SO MUCH TO JUST MAKE YOU HAPPY! I'VE BEEN RAPED, BEATEN,BULLIED, AND ASSAULTED JUST TO MAKE YOU HAPPY!!! IF I WANTED I COULD PUT YOU IN JAIL!!! FOR ALL THE THINGS YOU'VE DONE TO ME!!!" i finally finished and took a deep breath
"You don't want me fine, but just know.... i will NEVER... EVER..... forgive you... You will never be the mother you once were. You will never be loved by Mayve or me AGAIN!" I finished and just stared at her...
"Your father will be here in 2 hours so get packing... slut!" she said to me
I marched upstairs and went into Mayve's room. I grabbed the suitcase from under her bed... It was already packed, just incase she found a way out. I guess this is our way out... I put her suitcase in my room and packed her backpack. I made sure to pack the stuffed monkey i bought her for her 4th birthday. She named it Mr. Chuckels. I roamed the room for anything i left behind. Nothing... But where's Mayve. I was searching around for her, when i heard sniffles come from the closet.
I opened the closet door. Mayve was sitting on the floor, hugging her knees to her chest
"I'm so so so sorry Mayve" i said to her
"Are we leavnig?" she asked me. Looking into my eyes. Her cheecks were red and many freckles popped out from under the red. Her eyes were red and puffy.
"Yes, sweetie..." i said holding my arms out
She jumped into them. Me holding her. I never wanted to let go
"fianlly..." she whispered... a smile grew across my face. I'm so glad she isn't mad at me.
"Let's go back to stuff. Want to help?" i asked her. Changing the subject
"Yah..." she hoped off of me and ran to my room. I hurried off after her. She jumped on my bed which made my whole bed squeak.
~~~~2 hours later~~~~
My dad should be hear any second now. Mayve and I are both finished packing. I take a look at my now empty room. It was so strange. Seeing it without my stuff in it.
I heard the doorbell ring and someone open it.
"Hello???" a male voice rand through the house
I walked downstairs, hand in hand with Mayve. I could tell she was nervous, so i squeezed her hand to reassure her that everything was fine. The truth is... I'm scared to. What if he's like Jeff. I'm scared and I hope Mayve can't tell. Hopefully this is our escape and that this is a new beginning for us.
