It was a cold december night, when i first got the text. I was really upset i didnt know what to do. My whole body just froze, i didnt understand. I just started crying my heart out, i couldnt move, i couldnt speak. I was crying but no sound came out, I was dying inside but i couldnt let it show. People came up to me and said stuff like "Im sorry for your loss" or "Im always here for you Robyn." But it didnt mean anything it just felt like words, those words were never going to bring her back. She was my bestfriend and i couldn't even bring myself to think about her death.
10 years before...
As i walked into my first day of my new job, i felt scared and anxious, my anxiety was really bad today, and i forgot to take my pills. Today wasn't going to well. I didn't know where i was going or who anyone was, i had moved across country for my dad, so that he could get away from that town. I was walking around trying to find my way to the manager when a girl came up to me, she looked about my age, probably in my postition a few years back too. She asked if i was ok, i replied "Not really, im new im trying to find my way to the manager" She laughed and said "Well my names Kelsie but everyone calls me K, i will take you to her if you want?" I was so happy to have found someone to take me to them, so i accepted her offer and replied "Yes please and im Robyn." As we were walking to the manager's office it felt like we had known each other for years, we connected in a way i will never forget. We got to the office, and i got my stuff for my office. I had to label draws first but its fine because my office was with K! was the alshe sat me next to K and i dont think we did any work because we were speaking throughout her lesson. K came back to mine because we wanted a girls night. We stayed up all night talking about boys and doing makeup, watching movies and pampering ourselfs. I could tell right then that she was going to be my bestfriend.
2 years after my first day and K had got herself a boyfriend, i was single and i felt like i had lost my bestfriend. I didnt want to tell her this because i wanted her to be happy but i think she knew. She was always with me more than Max, and she was always making sure i was ok with her dating Max. Obviously i wanted her to be happy with him but she always wanted to go to him when we were together. But then she realised how i felt and she said "Robyn, your my bestfriend and if you are feeling alone because of Max im going to break up with him. Its always going to be you!" She went up to Max the next day in the office and explained the whole situation and said that she couldnt be with him anymore. But the thing is he didnt care, he didnt care because he had been cheating on her with the head of the cheer team!! I had to speak to him. I went over to him while she was in the corner, crying over him. I screamed at him "WHY WOULD YOU EVER DO THAT TO HER! SHE WAS THE BEST THING YOU COULD EVER GET!!" I was so angry, i wanted to punch him but i knew i couldnt. I walked away and spoke to K and she blamed the whole thing on me! I felt torn. Silently, i just left. I ran all the way home, i wouldnt stop. I stormed in to the house, slammed the door behind me and ran up the stairs, up into my room, flopped on my bed and screamed into my pillow. I had to text her but i knew i couldn't. I put my favourite song 'I hate u I love u' on replay and sat and cried, this wasnt the first argument we had had but it was probably the worst for me.
-PING PING-
It was my phone, the music stopped and i checked my phone. There was a SnapChat from Kelsie. I was too scared to open it but i opened it anyway, it read "Im sorry for taking it out on you, Can i facetime you?" I started bawling, i couldnt stop smiling. I replied "Of Course You Can!!"
We facetimed for hours and hours, crying and laughing. I missed her so much, over those 49 minutes and 32 seconds, yes i did count because she is my bestfriend.
