without a word

walking into the classroom i look around. it was my turn to sing. i didn't want it to be depressing so i sung hakuna mattata one of my favourites. everyone was looking at me. they knew what i was like. they new that i was happy,joyful and upbeat. as i sung i glanced at my crush who was looking directly at me. I've been told that he liked me but i never had the guts to say what i thought no one even knows about my feelings for him except for my best friend ellana. i adored him. that was the beginning of my fight for happiness.

slowly i walked into form. i had a really bad feeling about the day but still i had to continue. my form teacher mr gland sat us down and said 'i have really bad news. you all know James well he's been in a car accident.' at that moment he chocked up obviously holding back the tears as we were all in shock for that news but it clearly it wasn't the end. 'he's passed away.'at that moment ellana was staring at me i jus stood up and walked out of the classroom. mr gland didnt say anything to me i just sat outside the room and cried by myself. i didn't want anyone to see. elena knew that i wanted to be alone. she could tell by the look i gave her as i walked out of the room.

the rest of the day just drifted by in a blur. i didn't concentrate on anything else but James and not crying. during lessons all i looked at was where he would sit and every day both glance at each other across the room then look away shyly.

first lesson the next day was music. mr gold had set up a small shrine for James with candles. we walked in and sat down. he then asked 'i want someone to sing to the class a song for James now who do you volunteer.' at that moment everyone said my name and the reason was because James apparently thought i had a beautiful voice. mr gold took me into a different room then we decided on a song. he was going to play the piano and i was going to sing 'without a word.'

i started singing but when i got to ' stand there and look into my eyes,' i chocked up a bit and started crying but i continued the song and finished it. at this point i didn't care what i looked like and if i was seen crying i just needed to let it all out which i did. Ryan a good friend of mine walked up and hugged me. i calmed myself down a bit and now it was time for the shrine.

his best friend Tristan put an image of them together on it. people lit candles and them on and i decided to walk up and put my necklase on. it had a amethyst stone on which was suppose to give you good dreams; i kissed it before i put it down then walked away with tears in my eyes.

To be continued...