Memory -- noun.
1. Memory is the retention of, and ability to recall, information, personal experiences, and procedures.
2. Memories are often accompanied by feelings and emotions.
3. Memory involves awareness of the memory.
Her finger traced each word carefully, not quite understanding. Ability to recall...why couldn't she do exactly that? And personal experiences...she could think of none.
Feelings and emotions. That she could fully understand. They were constantly taking over her, the feeling of sorrow, regret, anger, but most dominant for her was an unexplainable feeling of longing. How to describe it? A hole, even a dull pain at times, but definitely a sense of emptiness inside that made her feel incomplete. Memories were accompanied by feelings and emotions right? Then explain to her why she could only comprehend one side of this equation?
The most important would be the last line. Memory involves awareness of the memory. She had absolutely no recollection, none of this so called 'awareness' of anything from her past so does that mean that she had no memories, no past? From what she could make out, memory equals to fact. An event must occur in order for someone to truly remember it.
Memories were proof of one's existence. If a person did not have memories, no information, and no personal experiences then what does that mean for that person?
She slammed the book shut and hurled it at the wall. She screamed in frustration and cried. She was now left with only two choices.
Remember -- verb.: Recapture the past.
Forget -- verb.: Cease to think of.
Which to choose?
~ 2012 ~
Yoona strolled onto the renovated bridge. It was no longer made of wood but of stronger material. Yoona grazed the metal railings gently as she walked slowly to the center. Yoona let a sigh as she leaned on the sides, admiring the beautiful setting. It was early spring. Life had begun once again. She smiled as she spotted buds on the once empty tree branches and heard the chirping of birds. The lake was calm enough for her to see her own reflection.
The lake looked so peaceful that it was almost impossible to believe that it had taken away someone very important to her. She glanced at the nearby payphone that she had once touched. It was also replaced with a new one. Yoona had not been able to save Jessica Jung.
Yoona silently recounted all the things that she had learned about her through Jessica's best friend, Tiffany. At first, she might look cold and mean but once you know her a bit better, she was actually a very warm person that would be there for you if you ever needed her. She did not like melons and absolutely hated cucumbers. She was a quiet person, a complete opposite of Tiffany. She does not like to cry in front of others so she exits the room instead. How Yoona wished that she got to know Jessica herself rather than through Tiffany and her stories.
Just a little more than two years ago, Yoona had not been able to speak due to an accident. She was mute, lonely and hurt. Jessica had come to find her, releasing her from her solitude. They spent only three days together and Yoona experienced true love. The memories of spending time with Jessica were the happiest Yoona had experienced for a long time. It ended too quickly for Jessica was not human but a spirit that came back to tell Yoona she loved her and that all she wanted was for Yoona to be happy.
