Is He Really Worth It (Cleaned)

What Have I Done

His eyes were full of joy. He gave me a big hug and kissed me right on my lips. It was an unfamiliar feeling to me. It felt so right but so wrong at the same time.

"So I'm cuffin?"
"Slow down. I gotta tell Kevin."
"Ight I'll wait."
"I meant, in person."

I had a feeling that it was a bad idea to have him come over here, but I ignored it.

I called up Kevin and asked him to come over. He said he would, and got here in less than 20 minutes. The doorbell rang and I let him in.

I told him to follow me up to my room, and we went inside. Daywaun was still sitting on my bed, even though I asked him to please leave.

"What the heck is he doin in yo room?"
"I don't know. Daywaun can you please leave so me and Kevin can talk."
"Nah I was there for you for the test, and Imma be here for you now."
"What test?"
I sighed. "Kevin, I'm not pregnant."
"YES!" he said and gave me a huge hug and a kiss. "Baby I wanna have a baby witchu its just that now is not the time."
"Yea I get it."

Daywaun cleared his throat. Me and Kevin just looked at him.

"Well," he said.
"Well what?" asked Kevin.

They both looked at me.

"Kevin... I just don't think that I can be with you. You wanted me to kill our baby, and that's not cool. And you weren't even here for me throughout all this stress. He was," I said looking at Daywaun.
"Okay... so what are you trying to say?"
"I think you know."
"Babe, we can work through this. You're right, I wasn't there for you
and I'm sorry. Please, please, please forgive me. I will do better and be there for you I promise."
"I don't know Kevin."
"Babe for real. And why you all of a sudden wanna leave me? Is it because of THIS NIGGA?" He yelled gesturing towards Daywaun.
"What no he..."
He cut me off. "Nigga I told you to stay away from my girl!"
"Kevin he..."
"Nigga back up she finna be mine now and Imma treat her better than you ever did!"

Kevin punched Daywaun in the face which caused Daywaun to stumble back. Then I saw a side of both of them I wish I had never seen before. It was brutal. They were each throwing punches and everytime I tried to break them up they would push me back.

I tried to stop them from fighting again, and this time did something stupid. I stood in between both of them, and Daywaun accidentally punched me in my face. He hit my right under my eye.

They both stood there and stared at me while I held the right side of my face in pain.

"Why would you do that?"
"I ain know she was gonna stand right in front of me!"

Kevin pushed Daywaun to the ground, and Daywaun stood back up. Then Kevin kneeled down and hugged me. Daywaun snatched Kevin from me and punched him right in his mouth. Kevin's mouth was now bleeding, and he lost his two front teeth.

Then, the most embarrassing thing happened. Kevin started crying. Tears of anger were streaming down his face. He ran out of the room and didn't come back, like a punk.

I put my right hand to my forehead and shook my head. Then Daywaun kneeled next to me and held me tight. I embraced it. He then let me go and ran downstairs. He came back up a few minutes later with a bag of ice, and handed it to me. I gratefully took it and put it up to my cheek.

"Kevin left."
"Good," I said.

He picked me up and put me on my soft, comfy foam bed. Then he turned on the tv, and went to Netflix.