Adopted by Lin Manuel Miranda

Chapter 19- How Could I Let This Happen?

         *Trigger Warning: Sexual Assault*
     It had been a little over a week since Liz met Lin and Vanessa and it has been amazing. We have been spending a lot of time together and it's been helping me. I've gained 5 pounds! Now I only have 20 more to go before I'm up to normal weight. But anyway sadly Liz was leaving for a few days to go visit a sick relative. I was sad but I knew she had to go visit this relative because apparently they were really sick. So I would have to brave high school without her.

       Not having Liz around has really shown me how little friends I have. She was my only friend and now that she's gone I had to go back to eating lunch alone. My day was a normal one, well except for one thing. I noticed Trent wouldn't stop looking at me. He never said or did anything but he kept looking at me. It wasn't too odd for Trent to do that so I pushed that aside and kept going on with my day. I had a few classes with him which made it hard for me to ignore it because it felt like he was trying to undress me with his eyes but I just ignored it. Boy was that the biggest mistake of my life.

      The final bell of the day rang and I bolted to get to my locker. I wasn't getting a ride from anyone today, I was going to walk to a little cafe and get a drink then walk home. Lately I haven't been out in the city much so I wanted to spend a little time out in it. I gathered all of my stuff and headed out of the school. The cafe I was going to go to was actually pretty close so the walk there wasn't bad. But I couldn't shake this feeling that someone was following me.

       I walked into the cafe and ordered my drink. There wasn't a very long wait but I ended up staying there a little bit longer just because I wanted to drink my drink there. It was really cute and I just enjoyed being in there. Soon enough though my drink was done and I left. This part of town wasn't very populated at all and not many people would walk by. Feeling paranoid I kept turning around because it felt like someone was still following me. I tried to shake it off and keep moving but I was getting really uneasy. This part of town wasn't completely safe that's why I didn't tell Lin or Vanessa exactly where I was going.

     There was no one around me when I felt hands grab my waist and pull me into a house. I tried to scream but it was muffled by a hand. My eyes scanned my surroundings and I soon figured out exactly where I was. I was in my old foster home. That helped me figure out who was doing this. It was Trent. I tried to punch and kick and get out of his grasp but nothing I was doing helped. Trent knocked my head hard against the wall, I guess he wanted me to stop being squirmy. The room started spinning and I felt like I was going to throw up. I couldn't do anything, I was too disoriented to do anything. I was helpless.

     Everything that happened after that was a bit of a blur. I could feel Trent undressing me but my arms and legs just wouldn't move. This was odd but then I remembered I left my drink on the table to go to the bathroom so he must have put something in my drink. After Trent undressed me I heard him unbuckle his belt and unzip his pants. I felt everything he did to me. Taking my virginity and my dignity. Using my body for his own pleasure without my consent. He was raping me and all I could do was lie there.

      After he was done with me he put my cloths back on and dragged me to an ally. I guess he didn't want to get caught. My body wouldn't move. I felt sick to my stomach and I felt just dirty. Someone had just used my body without my consent and that made me feel sick. I was laying on the ground in the ally for a while when I heard ringing. My stuff was out here too so I looked in my backpack and found my phone. I saw that Lin was calling and I knew why. It was already 5pm I was supposed to be home couple of hours ago. I pick up my phone and waited for him to yell.

      "Hey I was told you didn't come home. Where are you?" Lin questioned.

     "I don't know where I am. I'm sorry I never came home but trent found me," I said numbly.

     "What!" I heard Lin shout,"What did he do to you?"

      "He- um he-," I couldn't say the words.

      "Please tell me. What did he do?" Lin asked sadly.

       "He- he raped me," those words made me want to simultaneously throw up and just curl up into a ball and disappear.

      "Ok I need you to look and tell me where you are by. I'll come get you and then we can go to the police office," Lin said  frantically.

      I told him about the houses I was by and found a street address. My body was numb and I just sat there waiting for him. I couldn't believe this happened. Sure Trent was a but crazy but I never thought this could happen to me. How could I be so stupid to leave my drink unattended? I should have known the danger. This whole thing was all my fault. I hate myself so much.

Hello! I'm so so so sorry I didn't update yesterday I just went out with friends then had work and I didn't have time. But anyways this chapter. Also quick note why is everyone leaving Hamilton!?! Like no I want all of you to stay. But they are off doing their own things and if it makes them happy I'm happy. Anywho bye! XOXO