What Once Was

the letter

         Mason,

                   By the time you read this I will be gone. Under my bed is a box with all the sweatshirts, and gifts you have given to me over the last three years. Take them back as a memory, feel free to take anything of mine also, because we both know you didn't willingly give me all of your sweaters. I want you to know it was the end and there was nothing either of us could do about it. I had the urge to run to your doorstep, throw my arms around you,  and pretend to forget everything that happened only hours before. Pain was the only thing I felt as you solemnly walked out of my door and into the cold, windy, suburban streets of New York. 

      But, there was no going back now. It was predetermined  and that's how it will stay for the remainder of our sorrowful lives. Pitiful right? We promised we would never be the cliche couple, and look at us now, anything but cliche. I'm sorry it had to be this way but we weren't left with much of a choice as my mother spoke in a hushed voice, as if the quiet would make it hurt any less, and broke the news to you. The worst thing was watching you crumble before my eyes, and there being nothing I could do to give you the support you needed to forget. I wish I could tell you it was all a cruel prank, and we could laugh about it, but sadly it is no joke this time. 

      Mason, the one thing I want you to remember is that I will always be here for you, there is nothing you could do to make me forget all the battles and pain we faced together. You can't get rid of me that easy bud. I hope that you will find love again, the kind of love that hurts to be away from the person. the kind of love you fight for. And the kind of love we once had. I hope that you won't blame yourself for not being able to save me from this one. And I hope that one day you will look back on us and realize what a deep connection we had, nothing will ever be the same without you. I will always love you.

          until we meet again,

                                             abby

songs for this chapter:

All I Want- Kodaline

The Weight- Shawn Mendes

Youth- Daughter

How Long Will I Love You- Ellie Goulding

In My Veins- Andrew Belle

Broken Home- 5 Seconds Of Summer ( Happy birthday Luke!)

Spotify: hailey193313 (a majority of the songs I will be listing are on my playlists on Spotify)

A.N// let me know if you guys like this just playing around trying to figure out what I want to do with it!