BLOOD LUST

BLOOD 005: INTOLERABLE

Winter's Pov

I keep on twisting and moving my injured arms.. It cause me pain but i still manage to move it. I don't wanna be a burden, not anymore.

,"then why you keep on doing stupid things that makes you weaker and weaker everyday?"

My mind ask me as i look in the mirror. And with that thought i clinch my fist.

"I'm not weak, i dont wanna be weak...."

I told my self as i speak looking my reflection in the mirror.

Mommy and daddy's death..
Chase agony and his death...
Dad's selfless care for all his sacrifices and his death...
And... Snows death...

There lose is my weakness.. And i'm so damn tired of losing someone very important to me. And here i am again. Hiding my self and waiting for the day that i may lose someone instead of doing something that may help them to be safe.

Should i avoid them?

Thats is the last thing i am thinking in my entire life but if my presence will cause there life.. Then i would rather endure the pain of leaving them rather than losing them forever.

"Deep thought again.. What craziness run inside your brain now?"

Jace ask me as he throw his self into my bed and look at me with his eyes full of fear and pain.

"Nothing. Just dont be afraid, i'm fine... This is just a scratch"

I told him while laughing to convince him that i am not thinking anything.

"A scratch that may have cause your life"

He said in a very low voice that almost sounds like a whisper.. I look at him with a half smile painted on my lips.

"But it didn't"

I told him but he just stared at me seriously then he ask.

"Planning to disappear like a coward?"

He ask me and it hit me twice the pain i've felt when i recieve that damn bullet.

"I don't know what to do now."

I confess to him while looking at
the opposite of his direction.

"Then leaving them is not the answer.. Stand up and help us to win this fight my princess"

It really amaze me how he grow up to a man like this. The young Jace i use to remember can never be seen in his chatacter now.

"I will.... I will try.."

I answer as a small drop of tear about to roll over my face but he wipe it then pull out his body from the bed and hug me tight.

"Don't try.. Just say you will"

This hug... His hug reminds me of our older brother Chase.. Oh how i love them so much..

I break down in my brother's arms. I think this is all i needed after everything that happened.. I dont want my team to see me how miserable i am right now.. That is why i chose to stay silent and keep all the pain by my self..

But my brother seems like a mirror.. He can see right through me and knows that instant what is running in my head. ...
If only Chase is here... I'm sure he knows what to do like he always will..