No Love

Prologue

"Ess are you okay??"  my best friend Ashley asked.

"Yea I'm fine, its just that I don't feel up to going out tonight."

"What's happened?"

"Well I can't deal with being bullied anymore everyone, i mean everyone picks at the fact that im not like the other girls and that i self-harm............i feel like im about to do something that is not going to be pretty. They just don't understand that they are the cause of who I am today."

I practically was the girl who no one liked and im sick of it. I keep to myself and I bother nobody. It's all because I'm the richest girl and they think I'm stuck up cause I'm shy and don't have the courage top make new friends.

The only friend i really had was Ashley Turner but she was pretty. She is the perfect size six and she has perfect curves with huge boobs. She has beautiful bright blue eyes that I wish i had. I dont know why shes my friend but shes the best. She's too pretty to be my friend. I feel unworthy I'm her presence because of her beauty, but would I tell her that??? No because I don't have the courage.

"Please dont tell me that you're thinking of suicide! " she says all dramatic like........she was always so dramatic.

"No but i am totally thinking of hurting everyone else. I feel like I'm bout to have a mental break down. I swear I'm going to go mental and hurt people."

"Please don't cause then you'll be in jail and who will i hang out with then????"

"Okay but only for you." i say not really meaning it.

I wasn't really going to do any physical hurting but more like mental and emotional hurting.  I want to break their spirits like they have done mine. I want then to feel the torcher that I went through all these years. And it was going to happen sooner than later.