Where is God?

When I'm Lonely

The sun beat down on her back. The mid-summer wind blew the grass in swirls. Memories filled her mind, blocking out the rest of the world. She thought and she thought, how could God let this happen! If he truly loved her, how? She had seen the accident, heard her mother's scream. What would become of her now?

Cindy wept as she watched the men lower the two coffins into the large holes. She silently stood there, not paying attention to the friends and family walking past her--after giving their regards. She just didn't understand! If God loved her, what could he mean by this? She kept wondering and crying as her mothers dear friend, Mrs. Anne Crabtree, led her blindly away from the graves.

The fourteen-year old girl was small, but was--normally--very strong spirited. She felt very weak as Anne's husband, Adam, lifted her into the back of the wagon. She was set on some--rough, but soft--straw. Her vision was blurred from tears as she watched the graves grow further away. She was going to live with the Crabtree's, in the next town. It was a warm, summer, afternoon, and she soon cried herself to sleep, lying on the straw with her hands folded under her head. She was so tired, from all going on, that she drifted off to sleep.

While she was asleep mister and misses Crabtree discussed her fate.

"What are we going to do with her?", Adam wondered, glancing back at the sleeping girl.

"Well, give her a home of course!", Anne replied.

"I know, I meant, her heart is broken. She is lonely, how can we help heal her?"

"Teach her that she still has a heavenly father who loves her.", Anne continued, "I know for a fact that Rose and Micheal are waiting for her in Heaven. She told me, right before the accident", Anne's eyes began to fill with tears, and her voice got shaky. "She told me, that, they had both excepted Jesus into their hearts, and prayed that they could lead Cindy to him as well. They already taught her a lot, and she was close to excepting him when....this happened."

"Then we need to finish their wish. We will make sure to lead her to the Lord, so that one day, she will see her parents again.", Adam concluded as they were nearing their home.

He picked Cindy up, and carried her in the house. He carried her to the extra bedroom, in the attic, and lay her on the bed. Anne covered her with the blankets, and they left her alone. Praying that she would sleep well, and would soon be led to Christ. Because her best friend couldn't, Anne resolved to finish her dream of leading Cindy to salvation, so that they could be together in Heaven someday.

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Cindy sat in the house waiting for her parent's to return from town. Her father had told her that when they returned he would take her horseback riding. She couldn't wait! Horseback riding was her favorite thing in the world.

Standing up, walking in circles around the kitchen table, then walking back to her chair and sitting down. Restlessness was a plague to her when she was anticipating something. Especially now, when it was past noon, and her parent's were supposed to have been home for lunch.

Now she was starting to worry that she wouldn't get to go horseback riding today, and tomorrow was Sunday, so she couldn't.

Finally, Cindy stood up and went outside. She walked around the house to a large oak tree, and leaned up against it.

She found a foothold in the side of the tree and leaped up, turning a little and landed on a large branch. It wasn't lady-like, she knew, but she didn't care. She sat there her head leaning against the strong tree trunk by her side. She felt the winds moving the tree branches, and blowing through her hair.