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- jicheol anniversary tribute. 07/19/16

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01/01/--
Written at exactly 12 AM

I spent the whole new year alone again, silently waiting for you to come back. I've already asked myself, 'how many bottles of beer have I drank?' I know you're going to scold me if you find out. I've got low tolerance for this. But it's alright, I'm in our home anyway. I won't do anything that would hurt me.

P.S. I'm still hoping you'll come back.

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01/20/--
Written at exactly 4:09 AM

I saw our favorite place again. The good times, right? I could still remember how much you wanted to go there everyday. You often pull me out just to have a companion. I hated the outside world, but you changed that. I guess I'll forever thank you.

P.S. I wonder where you are right now.

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02/05/--
Written at exactly 3:02 AM

It's me again. I'm in my room, as usual. Ever since you left, I have always been locked in my room– our room. But I guess I can call it 'my room' since you aren't here. It's already past midnight but questions still keep on bombarding my mind. I can't sleep. It's like I need to answer these questions first before my mind finally allows me to do so. But I can't answer them without you. Perhaps that's my problem now.

P.S. I've got all these songs playing as I think. It's something you do mostly.

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02/17/--
Written at exactly 3:00 AM

Hey. I just found myself staring at our picture. The smile that captured me and made me fall for you. And I'm glad you caught me, sealing your promise that you'll always do. It sucks I can't see that smile now. It seems impossible.

P.S. I hope you're alright.

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03/07/--
Written at exactly 11:56 PM

How many days do I have to wait again? I can't remember. I miss you so badly. I just wanna hold you right now, cage you in my arms, share another kiss with you, live another life with you. Is that too much to ask? Whenever I look at the edges of our home, I always see you.

P.S. Come back soon.

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03/10/--
Written at exactly 2:48 AM

Midnight thoughts are already rushing in my mind. Why is it so hard to sleep without you beside me? I feel so empty. Probably buoyant. I saw the photo album we first filled with our happy moments. I miss those days.

P.S. Suffocated.

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03/16/--
Written at exactly 6:08 AM

Who knew I could resist a sleepless night? I'm in front of my desk again, holding a pen and a blank paper. The ink's a bit messed up. I think I should buy a new pen so these letters would be a little more presentable for you. Even if I won't send it.

P.S. I'm still waiting.

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03/21/--
Written at exactly 9:01 PM