C for Courage

Caiden comes for a visit

I got a call while I was changing Christian's diaper. I was so busy trying to get my son clean that I didn't check the caller ID. It could have been James for all I know.

"Hello?" I asked answering the phone and holding it in place between my head and shoulder.

"Hey Missy. Long time no talk, aye." I heard a familiar male voice say.

"Caiden!! Oh my God!" I squealed.

"Yup, the one and only." He giggled.

"So, you and Lucas still together?" I asked Caiden as I picked up Christian.

"Yeah. Actually, that's why I called. I didn't know if you would answer if I called until I ran into Jeremy yesterday. Anyway, me and Luke are engaged." Caiden says.

"OMG!! That's great!! I'm so proud of you. You and Luke need to come over." I said.

"YAS!! So true. We'll be over shortly!!" Caiden said.

"Okay! I forgot you lived six miles away from my brother's house." I said.

"Yeah. talk to you later Missy." Caiden said.

"Yeah same Doofus." I said.

We hang up.

I rush to the my son's nursery and put Christian in a cute romper. The romper was simple, for the weather, with dark blue horizontal pin stripes and a "cool polar bear" on the chest.

I then go in my room and get out of my pajamas. I put on a bra and put my Dan and Phil shirt and my Gryffindor sweat pants back on.

"Sienna!! Someone's here for you." Jinxx yelled out of me.

"Okay Jinxxy. Just let them in. I got to feed Christian." I replied to him.

"Just bring him here. I'll feed him. You spend time with your friends." Jinxx said.

I sigh and give in. I really need to stop putting my kid as reason to not have a social life. I guess I'm just worried about leaving him in case James showed up.

"Here Jinxx. Use the Similac sensitive stomach formula. You know his stomach in the mornings." I said handing Christian to Jinxx.

"I know See-See. I have lived with him for his whole life. Even though it's only been four short months. Have fun with your friends." Jinxx said.

He disappears up the stairs and into Christian's room.

I go into the living room and see my two gay best friends. Actually they're my only friends and just happen to be gay. Well, other than Allysa, but she is a whole other story.

"CAIDEN!! LUCAS!! HEY!!" I squealed.

"Hey girl. Hey." Lucas said.

"Hey gurl!!" Caiden said.

I giggle and hug them both.

"Come on let's set down and talk about WHY you haven't been in contact for four fucking years." Lucas said.

I sighed. I knew this would happen. I took a deep breath and explained my life from the time I was seventeen to now. They listened, I cried, they hugged me, and I finished the story with the birth of my son.

Caiden got up and bear hugged me.

"You should write a song about it. You was always good at turning your pain and suffering into a beautiful song." Lucas said.

I set to work on the song, knowing Lucas was right. I have always had a good time putting my worst experiences into songs to move on. The events aren't forgotten, but they are easier to bear.

Okay so in the photo up top, Lucas is the one with the brown and blonde hair. Caiden is the one with the red hair. This was originally a filler and I don't know how to make it longer, so the length sadly shall be the same.