Changed: Gakuen Alice Fanfiction ~Slowly writing/editing/rewriting~

The painter

I guess you can call me a masochist, everyday I live the guilt. I killed her. she trusted me and I let her die. I felt a small sense of relief as the warmth of myself flowed down my arm. I holding the piece of glass like a paint brush, I paint my arm, I've got pass the point of pain, it's more like a numb feeling now. My eyes Begin to go blurry as my paint begins to run low. I look down to look at my master piece it painted in crimson red like the colours of her eyes, I'm Sorry.

I kept on slipping in and out of hallucinations, so many ways I could have saved her, so many times she died. I finally woke up, not knowing how I survived I looked out the window, night has fell, my paint has dried and stained me, the carpet and  my clothes. I got up and stumbled to the bathroom relaying on the walls and furniture. I turned the shower on and sat down it, I couldn't feel the water, I couldn't feel anything. wrong. I felt pain, despair, hate, I felt my reality. I watched as the water turned red and disappear down the drain. my clothes clung to my skin as the water rained down on me. hours pass by as I sat I was slipping into depression you could say. everyday a nurse comes in, her name is julia, she's a 72 year old lady who is blind, she can sense things and controls the winds, she tells me that the wind sees for her, that night she told me not to apologies the little girl is happy. I jolted out of bed. my head was pounding and my arm burned, I looked down and saw a carefully wrapped bandage around my wrist. on my bed side table was a note, carefully written it said "hope" I carefully folded and placed in my pocket getting dressed for school was a struggle. placing my mask and rustics on just like every other day. I sneak into the kitchen and grab an apple tossing it up in the air and catching it before taking a bite, I glaceed at my watch, shoot, 20 mins late. I teleported, arriving just outside my classroom I stumble leaning on the wall for support, I inhaled and teleported again, I was sitting in my sit starring striaght ahead, I heard gasps as students are shocked of me suddenly showing up.

"Mi- Mikan?" Jingo sensie exclaimed pushing his glasses further up his nose. 

"should you be here, did you already get dis charged from the hospital?" Ruka asked, trying my best I ignored him, my head was throbbing again as the class broke out into an up roar of whispers and mummers. 

"Quite,QUITE!" jinjo shouted trying to reclaim the attain of the class. 

"we are doing a practical experiment today get into groups of 4" the class divided into their little groups, naturally no one offered to go in my group, everything was even, I was the odd on out. I settled up my table in order to began, I carefully mixed the chemicals together making a rosy pink color the bubbling liquid created small sparks. I hold it up eye level to get a better view of it, I was memorized by the colour.

"Big brother hehehe" the beaker containing the liquid slips from my finger falling to the floor and scattering, screams of shock was heard through out the room. slowly I turned my head, a pair of soft crimson eyes looked back, there stood the little girl, the little girl I had killed

"Aio?" 

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thinking about deleteing thins book...please leave a comment on what you think