I can't feel anything. Throughout my life I watched as everyone lived their life full of joy and feeling, while I sat in the darkness. Emotion never presumed to touch me. I know I am broken, but I don't care. As long as I have my books I'll be fine. I remember when I was younger, when I didn't discover the power of books. I pretended to be a normal girl, but I was so broken inside that I wasn't sure if I was even human. But those days are over.
After school, Monday
Walking home felt like a eternity. Somehow my apartment was so far away, well that's what it felt like. I didn't have any sleep last night, but I can't feel anything, I am numb. I was basically dragging my body to go home. My eyes were lifeless but I didn't care,I couldn't care. Suddenly by best and only friend Yuoni came running to my side.
" Hey Caroline! How's the new uniform fitting?" Yuoni cried
In a shallow breath I replied by saying...
" Oh it's fine, Yuoni, how's the class doing. "
Clearly Yuoni was on edge. But of course I didn't care, I can't. Finally I reached my apartment. When I'm in my bedroom I grab a book and start reading. But I end up reading the same sentence again and again, even when I've read it 55 times I don't know what I'm reading. Then my body got limp and I pasted out. I couldn't remember what happen after that but I do remember hearing repetitive voices. Go to hell, go to hell, go to hell, go to hell, go to hell, GO to hell, GO TO hell, GO TO HELL! Finally I woke up. Looking around I found that I was still in my room with Yuoni staring at me.
" You shouldn't spend whole nights reading, you're not getting any sleep. It's dangerous"
" Reading is the only time when I feel alive. Besides what difference will it make if I die? There's no point in living if I can't feel anything"
" I AM WORRIED, so are the teachers. It's starting to freak me out"
" Oh, it is, so it is"
She left when I said it, this sucks tomorrow will be my 15th birthday. Everyone will come and be worried just like Yuoni. What do I do?
Hey guys! Sorry this chapter is short. My other chapters won't be this short. This is a tester chapter to see if anyone likes it. Please vote, comment and follow! Thanks! Seeya🤗
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The book of books
FantasyCaroline loves books. She spends every second of the day reading. At night she would gaze into the sky full of stars and think, why couldn't the world be based on books? On her 15th birthday, while scrambling through the library she comes across a t...
