divided between two loves

it was a summer after noon and i was by myself in my room

wondering "what is antonio doing?" so i texted antonio "hey you cutie :)"

and he replied "hey sweety" and I asked him "hey do you want to hangout?" "Nah I can't sorry me and my buddy Luis were going to the movies tonight maybe tomorrow night ?" what antonio didnt know is that his buddy luis also had a crush on me. so it stayed at that and a couple hours later i get a text from luis saying "hey look outside your window!" so i look outside and to my surprise there he was the amazing grey eyed beauty and i texted him "hey you want to come in no ones home?" "sure!" he replied so i went to open the door and to my surprise antonio was with him i was in shock i thought he had came alone but i guess having  to two boys that adore me all to myself was a good thing so we spent the night playing video games and drinking a couple beers that was a night to remember. the morning after i woke up dizzy and very weezy was i pergnant ? nah that couldnt be but after i got out of the restroom i saw luis in my bed curled up in nothing but boxers. had he spent the night with me ? no that couldnt be i clearly remember him and antonio leaving last night but i guess antonio left but luis stayed and apparently i was ok with it and i guess we had sex but was i that drunk to not remember luis doing it to me ? so I crawled back in bed so that Luis wouldn't wake up and when he did he looked at me and said "do you remember last night? " "honestly No I don't remember anything that happened last night can you please tell me? " I told him with a very honest look on my face. so he told me that apparently I told him to spend the night with me and he accepted because I was over drunk and I also started to get a little sexual with him and told him that I wanted him and he gladly took me to my room and I didn't want him to go so I kissed him and that's what lead to us sleeping together I looked at him with a confused face and said "I really did that?" he nodded and said "yup and I thought you liked Antonio?" I looked at him and said "why did you think that?" "because I had asked you out once and you rejected me but when Antonio asked you accepted right away." he said with a depressed sound in his voice. I looked at him and told him "the reason I went out with Antonio is because he has had a crush on me since we were in middle school." his face turned in to a pinkish red with sadness and anger I took his hand and he told me "why didn't you ever tell me this I would've let him stay!" I took his hand and put it over my chest were my heart is located and told him "do you think that my heart would pound like this when we are together if I felt something for Antonio?" he took my face in his hands and kissing my lips he said "No that feeling is real and I can tell because when I kissed you it felt like fireworks and if you didn't feel the same way it wouldn't feel like this it will feel like nothing." I kissed him again and went to take a quick shower we were going to have lunch with Antonio and I looked at Luis and grabbing his hand I told him "lets not tell Antonio just yet I don't want him thinking that I just used him and I didn't but I still don't want him thinking that." he looked at me and tucking the hair behind my ear he told me "no problem I get it you don't want to hurt Antonio." I nodded and we left to see Antonio

I walked in to the location first followed by Luis five steps behind me. I sat down to see Antonio with a bouquet of roses and a box of chocolates in his hands and handing them to me and kissing my cheeck he said "hey beautiful you look more beautiful every day did you know that?" I just smiled imagening Louis' face right behind me but when I looked at him he had a weird smile on his face and he texted me " why the fuck is Antonio giving you flowers and chocolates!" I looked at him and replied "remember he doesn't know about us." when I told him this he right away changed his face from the mad smile to the sexy adorable smile that I loved. and after we left without Antonio ever knowing that me and Luis have something between us and I looked at him and gave him a reasuring smile and told him "I love you babe" he looked at me and kissing me on my cheek he said "I love you too baby" and we drove  back to my place but to our surprise Antonio was at my door. I got out of my car and he charged towards me and he told me " why the fuck are you lying to me you know that I've liked you since we were in middle school why the fuck did you sleep with my best friend." I yelled back " the reason I slept with Luis is because I love him and he loves me but he never told you because he didn't want you to get like this but i guess we should've told you since  the beginning so get back in your fucken car and drive the fuck alway and never come back because if you do I swear that I will let Luis go after your ass so leave now!!" after Antonio left Luis and I went back inside and laying down on the couch he told me "you didn't have to stand up to Antonio like that." I looked at him and told him "he was offending you I had to stand up for who I love and I'm not going to let him come here and yell at the love of my life especially not in my house." after a couple of hours I get a text from Antonio saying "I'm sorry for yelling at you I didn't mean to I just love you and you know that I've loved you since we were in middle school and to see you with Luis makes me sad and upset but I guess that I have to deal with it because I know that we will never have something and I just want you to know that when ever you need me I will always be there for you." I looked at the text and my tearts rolled down my cheeks I replied saying " its ok I love you too but yeah I think you should find somebody that treats you right and not stay stuck on me because I love you but I'm not in love with you I am in love with Luis and ill be there when ever you need me also." so a couple of weeks passed and we didn't hear from Antonio until one day I got a call from Antonio's phone it was his mom " hi umm is this y/n I'm just calling to let you know that Antonio was diagnosed with lung cancer and he only has a couple weeks left and if you want to see him he is at the general hospital in down town." I hung up and curled up in a little ball in a corner crying because I didn't know that he had cancer I felt so bad I told Luis and we went to see him that same day. as I walk in I see a sick thin pale body that looked like Antonio but I didn't recognize him.  I got close and held his hand and he looked at me and told me with a very weak voice "I knew you would come I was waiting all this time just to say good-bye." I looked at him with tears in my eyes and told him with a cracking voice "don't say that." he looked at me and said "its true my time is up and now its time for me  to go into an eternal slumber while you and Luis are happy here on earth." "I promise you that the baby that is developing here inside of me is going to have your name." I told him getting a better grip on his hand he turned his head towards me and smiled we were there for a while we heard his heart rate going down he looks at me and calls me to his bed side and tells me "thank you for giving me the best last moments and remember always and forever." those were his last words before his heart gave out and released the grip of my hand I felt my tears rolling down my cheeks I turn around and see luis' eyes get red with tears I go to hug him and release all of my sadness. its been two weeks since Antonio passed and I still can't believed he's gone and I'm 3 months pregnant and planning my wedding with Luis. its the day of the wedding and Antonio's mom surprises me with a video of Antonio wishing me and Luis the best I cried tears of joy and sadness because he says in the video "if your watching this video that means that I have passed on and its your guys wedding day I just wanted to say that I wish you the best of luck and I love you guys don't forget these words always and forever I will be with you guys love you guys peace! " I cried and also did Luis. so its been two years since the wedding and three years since Antonio passed away. now we have three kids two boys and a girl and we will always and forever have Antonio in our hearts!!!!! THE END! !!!!