Broken and alone

Ch 4

The pic up top is kinda how I imagine mason looking hope u guys enjoy

I was staring at the clock in my last class of the day just itching to get out of this boring classroom. Two minutes to go i thought.

Finally after what seemed like the longest two minutes of my life the bell rang signaling it was time to go home. I rushed out of the classroom and to my car not wanting Mason to follow me or try talking to me. I haven't seen him since lunch and i would like to keep it that way.

I got to the parking lot and start walking home. As i was walking i see this nice car drive by and the sweet purr of the engine almost made me melt with joy. Ive never told anyone this but i love cars. For the most part I'm into 1960s cars but even if you give me a modern car i know exactly how to fix it. After a few more minutes of daydreaming i was at my house. It only took about 15 min to get from the school to my house so i was there in no time.

I walked up to my house but when i went up to unlock the door i heard something shatter inside the building . I rushed in the house thinking my mom  might was hurt. She might be a bitch to me but i still some what loved her. After all shes my mom.

When i got inside my mom was there,but she wasn't hurt. Instead it looked as though she was seething with anger. And there was a broken vase shattered on the floor next to her.

"YOU "she screamed at me."YOU'RE  THE CAUSE OF ALL  OF THIS , YOU RUINED EVERYTHING FOR ME"

"Mom just calm dow.."

"SHUT UP"she said cutting me off.

All of a sudden i could see her hand start to raise and then she did something i never thought she would do, she slapped me.

"JUST GO TO YOUR ROOM YOU PATHETIC SLUT" she said.

I was in shock but the fear of getting hit again had me run up to my room and close my door. The minute i closed my door i started crying.

I looked over to my special place. The place that was filled with so much blood and tears but at the same time this place actually made me feel human for once. I tried to fight the urge to go to that special place. Don't i told myself , it wont help anything . But after trying to fight it for about 20 minutes i gave in. I slid the blade across my wrist my thighs my stomach and any where else i could.

There was so many i couldn't even count them all. I was all covered in blood. My vision then started getting hazy and i was feeling light headed. Its never gone this far i thought. What a disgusting human being i am i told myself , with that thought floating in my head i blacked out. Man i really need to stop passing out.