She Wolf

Need

Amelia's POV
Once again my mate shocks and surprises me.
"I said hit me alpha." He says smirking. All the anger and resentment I feel for my mom comes at me and I put it into the right hook I swing his way. He blocks it and sends a punch into my side and the pain blooms until I'm gasping for air. I use the pain to kick him in the side and send him flying into the wall. He comes back and we go blow for blow for hours until neither of us can stand.
"Do you feel better?" He asks as we lay out on the mats.
"No." I whisper turning to him. I feel the tears and he looks at me and pulls me to his chest
"What do you feel?"
"I feel angry and guilty. I shouldn't have said that about her but I-I- I've just been holding it in for so long and..."
"And you needed to get it off your chest."
"You shouldn't have tried to fight me in that state."
"Don't forget I'm an alpha too little mate." I smirk at him and roll towards him so my head is resting on his chest.
"I love you Alex." I say searching his eyes.
"And I love you." He says back.
"I wanted to talk to you about kids." With everything going on I've been putting this off and as my mate he deserves to know. He must sense the change because his arms tighten around me and I begin to feel nervous.
"Do you want kids?" I ask him worried.
"Yes I do. Why?"
"I'm-I'm not sure if that is something I can give you."
"You don't want to have my pups?!" He snaps at me pulling back.
I look down embarrassed and angry with myself.
"I want kids but my body physically can't." I say. He looks at me and opens his mouth to say something.
"I'm sorry that is probably something I should have told you from the start. I knew it could be a deal breaker for some wolves but I was just so young when I shifted. My body wasn't ready and it effected me in more that just one way. That's why I was so hurt when Thea claimed to be pregnant. I thought she was going to be giving you something I couldn't. And to top it off you went and made it seem like I was some kind of monster cause you didn't want me around your pack. I felt like it was my fault that I'd have a problem having kids." I say rushed and sad.
"Why didn't you tell me this?!" His wolf growls at me. Calypta and I both jump back at the sharp and hard sign of rejection.

Alex's POV
"Why didn't you tell me this?!" Holt growls at her. I look at Amelia and feel this overwhelming feeling of sadness at her words but Holt doesn't know how to deal with any feelings and separate them from anger. I feel her pull back and her expression is cold and wary. I push my wolf to the back of my mind and he howls in sadness.
"I'm sorry Amelia. Don't worry about this we will figure it all out."

The next few weeks Amelia has been keeping her distance and treating me less like a mate and more like a ticking time bomb. I know it has everything to do with the way I took the news on her not being able to have kids and every day she spends tip toeing around me the more I feel like shit. Not only that but her confidence in meetings and gatherings and ceremonies has dropped and she seems as if she doesn't believe in herself no more. I don't know what I can do to fix what happened and a part of me is still sad about the news. Even though I didn't plan on having kids at this moment I definitely had intentions of having my own little soccer team of mini me's and mini Amelia's and now we would be lucky if we could even have one. I've always wanted a big family, probably cause I came from a decent sized family.

I watch as Amelia sits at her desk signing papers and instead of it relaxing her like usual she seems to be growing more tense and more frustrated. I clear my throat and she looks up.
"I'm going back to my pack tonight and I'm staying for a week or two." Her whole body freezes and tears spring to her eyes. I look at her confused by her reaction. I would assume she would want me gone for a few days the way she was behaving around me.
"Of course I understand. I knew-I knew it was coming." She says her voice hoarse and cracky.
"Knew what?"I ask confused.
"About the kids. I knew it was a deal breaker with a lot of men especially alphas."
"I'm sorry what?" I ask again. Does she really think that I would leave her over this.
"Don't worry Alex I new it was coming. I was preparing myself." She says looking down to cover the tears.
"Is that why you were acting weird these last few weeks?" I ask surprised she's been thinking that I was gonna leave her the past few weeks and now I am. Now is probably the worse time to head back to my pack and I should have know better then to try and leave while I'm not on good terms with Amelia. When I left like this last time I felt so weak and so easily irritated. I was snapping at people and it got so bad I had to check in with the pack doctor only to find out that this is something that would happen every time my mate was mad at me.
"Mates aren't meant to go long periods of times arguing or without talking, when was the last time you saw or spoke to your mate?"
"Few weeks. We parted on really bad terms."
"That's bad. Mates are meant to put their mates and their mates feeling first before all else, especially a Luna."