I wasn't crazy.

5

Cara was shocked by those words, too shocked she almost said no. She watched as the nurse leaned against her desk and lit a cigarette. She then saw her reach over and pull out a pile of blue clothing and a pair of rubber gloves from the draw of her desk. As Nurse Ailisa turned back to her Cara quickly pulled up her top then shook off her trousers. "It's a full body check blondie, I have to do an anal examination. You won't believe what some of you nutcases bring in here from up there".

She shakily pulled down her underwear and unclipped her bra. God it's cold in here, she thought.  She couldn't remember the last time she stood naked in front of someone, maybe a school friend when changing into a swimming costume last summer. She watched watched as the nurse walked around her putting on the pair of white rubber gloves. She lifted cara's arms above her head and prodded around from her ribs to her lower stomach. "I would wash you but I forgot to fill bucket. Anyhow.... bend over the bed blondie".

She turned to face the bed and bent forward leaning on her forearms. Cara was still a virgin meaning neither ends have been touched which scared cara to no en....

"Shit" She cried quickly putting her hand over her mouth, trying to hold in her curses. The feeling wasn't pleasant which didn't surprise her ; she was just caught up in her own mindless thoughts. She bit her hand, as the 90 seconds Nurse Ailisa fingers were inside her felt too painfully long to comprehend. Pulling out cara uncovered her hand noticing the slight blood reaching the surface of her palm.

"Turn around blondie, no need to lay there all night this isn't where you're sleeping" Nurse Ailisa tapped her on the back. Cara rose up onto her feet and turned back to the redheaded nurse who held the pile of blue clothes in her now gloveless hands. "Get changed whilst I tell you your patient time table, the 5 rules you must follow and punishments that lead on from them". She sighed and took the clothes unfolding them. 

"Patients rise at 7am. A different nurse, Nurse Judy, comes around knocking on your door with your pills and day clothes. As you can see what your wearing is your night dress." Cara looked down to her feet as she buttoned up the last button the the sleeveless dress. "From then on you'll go to the social room from 7:20 to 9 as then you'll specifically go to your therapy session which is 3 times week, Tuesday, Thursday and Sunday or your check up which will be led by me Monday and Friday. No appointments are necessary on Saturdays unless needed. Also on Saturdays you'll get an unsupervised shower if you behave otherwise you'll just get your night showers with is daily."

"From 10 to 10:45 will be breakfast, unless you have eating disorder you will be there until you finish your plate. The reason we have breakfast so late is because our kitchen staff don't arrived until 9 and it works well with your time table specifically. Instead of group therapy we do group art with categorized age groups until lunch which is 1:30. Then at 2:15 you'll be aloud to go outside into the garden area which is at the back of the building. At 5:45 you'll have your dinner and your afternoon pills. 6:30 you'll get showered and ready for bed and if you have a problem sleeping or we think you do, you'll have a night pill". 

That's why there was no noise, cara thought to herself. She nodded for the nurse continue. It didn't all seem so bad her. "Now you'll really need to remember the rules as you'll won't be reminded this unless you're being punished which then they'll make you recite the rules countless times. 

1. Don't argue with staff or correct staff in any ways.

2. Don't touch any other patients in an intimate way, meaning hugging, kissing or holding hands.

3.Don't try to escape you will be found.

4. Don't fight or harm another patient or staff member.

5. Behave.

Now punishments are like ones you have at school but twice the amount a normal student would get as you lot aren't normal. 6 canes, whips or paddles minimum 30 canes, whips or paddles maximum. Either bare bottom, back or stomach. Am I clear?"

"Yes Nurse Ailisa"

"Okay i'll take you too your room, remember when being authorised back to your room your door number is 156".