Heathens

0.5

The sun rose up finally and all I saw was his face. His face haunting me, I couldn't save him. I didn't save him, I fücking froze up and he killed himself. I'm practically Captain, I save them. I have to save them. I can't fail, but I have already. God fúcking damn, I'm the damn failure of a lifetime. I messed up badly. I see the faces of all the people I failed. My parents, Nath, friends, family, everyone. Even her... Mainly her. I promised to always be there but now I'm not and she's gone. She's in danger and it's all my fault. I can't save anyone even if I tried so hard, I gave my all and I failed.

I ran up ahead and kept running, it's what I'm best at anyways. Running from everything and everyone, it's all I can do. I can't save her, I won't be able to be there. I failed her so many times and she keeps coming back. I don't know how many times I messed up badly and she forgave me and just acted like I did nothing. I hurt her so badly many times but all she did was suck it up and smiled through the pain, I even know she was breaking. A couple of times I tried to leave so she wouldn't be hurt but she begged me to stay each time and always came after me, she wouldn't let me go. She refused to let me walk alone ever.

I guess that's why I fell in love with her, not only is she beautiful, but she has-had... She had a big heart. It was so forgiving and filled with hope, never did it give up on anyone. She always saw good, no matter how many times she did you wrong. Or even what you did in the past...

"Kyle!" Eric caught up and one by one so did everyone. I couldn't help but feel worse. I'm tiring everyone out and I keep running.

"What? Get the fuck away from me, I don't need your psychotic ass near me." I yelled and pushed him back. He fell back but got up right away and tried to punch me. I ducked down and ran into him, lifting him up and slamming him in the mud. It started to rain, a storm was coming in fast and we didn't have a shelter.

He got winded but I slipped. I looked up and saw Vic trying to help, but the others pulled him back and so they just watched us. Everything felt normal again, like before everything that went down. Without her...

Eric got on top and tried to choke me. I punched him hard in the ribs, he put on hand off and I managed to flip us since I'm much heavy and taller than him.

"Fucking stop already. Stop running." He barely got the words out and I let go of strangling him. I wanted to cry but he already was and so I just punched him hard enough to knock him out.

I picked up his body and carried out with the directions. I wasn't going to stop and no one is going to get in my way. I put on some music since I had my old iPod. I blasted up some Eminem song continued to ignore the world as if this was normal. I guess it is now. It's the new normal.

The rain was cold on my skin, my clothes stuck to my body. We all had grey cargo pants, boots, and whatever shirt we found comfy. Some of us had caps, helmets, or just nothing. We didn't have much bags or new clothes. If we don't find shelter or get better clothes we are surely to get sick and one of us can get it badly, to the point one of us can die. If I didn't have her I wouldn't care, but she's there and I'm here so I need to do it. I need to live.

We walked until our boots were filled with water (not really, just probably for another hour). Everyone was completely tired and Eric was still dead looking. At least I don't have to hear him talk right now. We found a little gas station. Now we are currently searching it...

"You guys take the right, well take forward, and they get left." I whispered. And we crouched down, moving low and fast.

Just a game Kyle. It's just a game..

I opened the front door and quickly got up, readying my gun. I had it loaded and ready to open fire. You always have to be ready and fast on any field, like so.

I did unnecessarily rolls but it made me feel awesome so I kept going. I checked everywhere and there was nothing. Nothing but food and a few beds. So I went to the bathroom and decided to take a leak. A guy gotta do what a guy gotta do, Yo.

I unzipped my pants and looked down. I noticed some blood, don't worry. It isn't mine, I didn't even get little Kyle out. Not that I'm little...

Anyways that's not the point. I zipped up my pants and crouched down, I examined the blood and looked closely to find any trails, but I saw nothing. The blood looked rather fresh and not so old, like a day but as in recent. I heard a scream and it sounded like Ryder.

I grabbed my gun quickly and ran out, Ryder was held gun point. Everyone else was on their knees. My heart was heating fast and palms got sweaty. They had double what we had so we have no chance. This isn't how I want it to end. This isn't how I'm going to let it end.

Ryder was crying and it was odd to see her cry. I felt this uneasy feeling with the way the guy was holding her against his body. Some other guy popped out from behind the counter, walked up to Ryder and slapped her. She stopped crying and tried to hold it in.

"Take her to the back and.. do whatever you please. You earned it my child." He smirked. I tried to stop him but getting in his way while the guys tried to get up, but they all got knocked down and so did I. The guy wasn't bad looking. He had this thing about him I'm sure the girls would swoon over. He's hot.

"What are you doing in MY turf?" The guy asked and I shrugged.

"Dunno, saw a few doggos and decided to take one as my own." I replied sarcastically. And that's when I heard the screams.

Ryder's screams.

I heard a loud bang then two gun shots.

Except only her screams rang in my head.