JOSH {August 19}
I woke up today feeling extremely good, considering I have to record a couple extra videos for tomorrow; Freya and I are going out to London to spend time together. We haven't seen each other in a while, which makes it even more of a pain in the ass to record because i'm really excited to see her. We have been together for 5 years in two months, October, 23rd. I think i'm gonna propose, i'll be 24 and I really love her. I'm gonna tell Simon about it tonight, see what he thinks, I've only told Tobi about it and he acted happy but I knew he wasn't. I don't think he likes her all that much but he wants the best for me and I think this is it.
I start recording a solo Shellshock video just to try and rank up, so I have better weapons for the episodes I do with the other sidemen. It was going pretty well, I did 4 rounds and only lost one. I decided that was enough for one episode and did an outro. I then went downstairs and got food before I went and recorded a Fifa video of my A-Z series with Ethan for my main channel and then a rocket league video with Ethan and Simon.
After recording with Ethan and Simon I had Simon in the call after Ethan left to go get dinner with Emily, his girlfriend.
"Simon, can you meet me in the kitchen, I wanna talk a bit?"
"Yeah, sure, gimme a minute to gather some dishes to take to the sink." He said
"Alright, see ya."
"yep, bye," He said as he ended the call.
'I'm so nervous to see his reaction' I think as I walk down the stairs and into the kitchen waiting for him to come down.
SIMON
I grab my stuff and head downstairs wondering what Josh wants to talk about it. It could be so many things which kind of made me worry. As I get downstairs I see Josh leaning up against the counter looking at his phone, I go over putting my dishes in the sink, deciding i'd wash up after he's done talking to me.
"Hey," I hear him say after I put my dishes down.
"Hey, what's up?"
"Nothing much just wanted to talk. You know how me and Freya will have our 5 year anniversary in a couple months?"
"yeah," I say waiting for him to continue
"I think i'm gonna propose."
Once he told me I got wide-eyed, I don't know what came over me but I got really jealous. 'I'm straight, there's no reason to get jealous' I told myself.
"Oh shit I was not expecting that," I paused laughing a bit " Yeah man she must make you really happy, go for it," I say kind of faking a smile.
"It's really cool that you're supportive," he says and walks over to me pulling me into a hug. The hug was over quicker than I would have liked it to be, but it was nice.
"when are you planning on doing it?" I asked
"On our anniversary, I want to go look for a ring the day after tomorrow. I want you and Tobi to come with me if you're not busy."
"You know I would but I am actually going home for a few days tomorrow, ya know to see my mum," It wasn't a complete lie, I was going to go see my mum soon but I didn't think it would be this soon.
"Alright, i'll see you when you get back. I'm gonna go edit my videos and then go to bed, night Simon."
"Night Josh."
As he left I went to go wash my dirty dishes. Thinking about this it kind of want to make me cry. I mean almost everyone is in a relationship right now. Vik is with Kayleigh, Harry is with Katie, Ethan with Emily, and josh with Freya possibly for the rest of his life. I've never been in a serious relationship and i'm almost 24. Fuck it, i'm gonna get Jide and were gonna go out tonight. I just wanna get really drunk and possibly hook up with someone.
I get done washing up and go upstairs and go into Jide's room.
"JJ"
"Yeah, simon. Whats up?"
"I know you're really busy not making videos, but I wanna go out tonight."
"Simon, what happened? You never want to go out like this unless something has happened."
"I don't want to talk about it right now. I just wanna get drunk."
"Alright go get ready."
I go up to my room and take a towel and my phone to the bathroom going to get a shower. I turn the water on getting undressed and turning Spotify on and putting on a grime playlist before checking the water and getting in.
Getting out and going into my room to dry off picking out a pair of black jeans and a casual white top, deciding it was good enough. Once I was done I was done putting on my clothes I dried my hair and fixed it with a bit of gel.
I went downstairs and waited for JJ in the kitchen, sending him a text telling him that I was ready. He came down shortly after and soon enough we called a cab deciding neither of us wanted to drive.
*skip the car ride*
We get to the club and go in, almost immediately I make my way over to the counter and order a beer.
I finished my beer and me and JJ ordered a few shots wanting to get drunk as soon as possible. Downing 2 shots, I got 4 more before making my way out to go dance and see if I could find a cute girl. I don't remember much after that...
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the date at the top is the date of the day this is all taking place on. It's actually July 25th as i'm writing this.
I don't know how often i'll be updating I don't have much patience which is why it took 2 days to write with a bunch of breaks in between *laughing crying face* i'm writing this on my laptop so I don't have emojis but you know what I mean.
I swear i'm cool irl I just like to write "formally" in books so people don't not read because of spelling errors. DM me anytime we'll be friends!
-Mia
