Monophobia

Monophobia: A strong fear for being alone. 

In all aspects of my life, the most painful was loneliness. 

It was the quiet sound of the door creak. 

It was the silent whispers of the water tap. 

It was the sudden scream from the kitchen then, it was the loud crash that my eyes flew open.

It was the creaks against the floorboards. 

And there I was standing before them.

They yelled, they screamed, they hit each other in violent agony. 

I tried to speak but my voice went silent. I tried to reach out but my arms and legs would not listen. 

It was the ache in my chest that drummed rapidly.

The two stopped their bickering and with pity eyes, a fake smile penetrated from their features. 

They ushered me back to sleep, whispering sweet nothings into my ear. Telling me, "It isn't your problem." 

"But it is my problem", I wanted to say. 

That was when...the moment darkness took over and when I woke up the next day. 

They were gone.

It was hard trying to understand what went wrong. It wasn't easy as an 8-year-old kid but what hurt most was the loneliness and the longing warmth of a genuine hug.

They say that "There are no such things as happy endings", but I say, "This is just the beginning from a bitter goodbye."