What day is it? I lost count..I've been avoiding everyone, I just can't face them anymore. What will they think of me now? Are they better off without me? I glance out the window, all the others are outside.
"Hey, where's Merium?"
I hear someone ask.
"She hasn't been out since the incident. Is she okay?"
I close the blinds and kick my chair. They remember. They'll never forget. I'm a monster.
"Merium? Are you in there?"
I hear from outside the door. I don't answer. The door is locked anyway, nobody could get in even if they tried. I lie down on my bed and stare up at the ceiling. I feel tears forming in my eyes, and I let them fall.
Why me? Why did it have to be this way?
I only wanted to win that bingo game...
I only cheated once...
I stand up and grab a piece of paper and a pen. I quickly scribble my note onto it walk to the door.
What did I write? I wrote something for all the elders. They need to learn that I can't be trusted anymore. I glance at what I wrote one more time.
"Save yourself."
I slide it under the door and go back to my bed. Maybe this time I won't wake up.
