I remember when I got my first kiss. Remember that feeling I got felt like a shot from Cupid. My incidence was shown by the blush in my cheeks. My flesh it was weak.
The floor fell from beneath my feet. And I was floating and I was hoping that this feeling would remain. But as time moved on I was drawn into the world and realized how it was back then. It's just not the same.
I remember way back when I first fell in love. Felt like my mind was over took by a guy. Repetition. My mind was stuck on reply every time we would spend a day together. Remember saying "This is forever". Even tho I knew it wasn't true I wanted to live in that moment.
Now I try to repair and heal because as I kept feeling that love I was longing for it. Broken hearts and break ups. Stuck in a dream afraid to wake up. Seen my heart falling apart. Seen it failing but I couldn't restore it.
Heart broken in by a thief but I couldn't report it because I let him in. Cuz he was disguised before my eyes as a lover and a friend.
Creating another ex afraid of the next so I shut down. Cover blown so my heart was thrown straight into the ground. So you ask me why I'm the way that I am. U ask me why I'm so insane. Because the after shock of love is brought and wrapt up tight in pain.
