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Chapter 2

Remis POV-

After driving for a few minutes I began to think about my past.

-flashback-

"G stop what are you doing?!"

"Don't blame this on me Remi this is your mothers fault."

"What do you mean it's my moms fault she's not even here!" I yelled.

"Your not supposed to be here Remi. You or your brother. Your dad was always the ones to get the girls." He said in disgust.

After that he ripped off my shirt and I began to punch, kick, knee, and basically everything I could posibly do to make Garret get away from me. But he was to strong for my little 12 year old self. And he stole something from me I'll never be able to get back.

On that day I lost three things. My virginity, my voice, and my faith in humanity.

~end of flashback~

"Remi were here." My mom said giving a small smile.

Are relation ship has gotten a little better over the years but nothing has been the same for a long time.

And I have to confess it's not just her who pushed me away.

I avoided her for months after I was raped. I just couldn't wrap my head around what Garret meant when he said it was my moms fault so I made out half of it out as her fault. And not because I truly thought it was her fault. But because I was scared I would say so something and blame it on her. Which I couldn't do because it wasn't her fault.

I hadn't realized we had already made it to the door when my mom touched my arm and we walked in.

"Hi Remi. How are you doing today?"

I just shrugged my shoulders and sat on one of the couches. Therapist always do this ask you questions like you would immediately open up to them and tell them everything.

It might work for some people but telling people my feelings makes me feel weak. Well weaker then I already fill.

I hate going to therapy all I do is sit here and stare at the lady as she try's to talk to me.

After a hour and a half of pure torture it's time to leave.

"Rem go sit in the car I have to talk to the therapist." I simply nod my head and walk to the car getting in and playing low life.

No ones here right now so I softly whisper the words drumming my fingers on my leg.

-Sam (her mom) POV-

Therapy wasn't working for her and I don't know what to do.

She just stopped talking and began pushing me away.

I feel like it was something I did so I'm always thinking negative and I don't want her around even more negative vibes because I can't get myself together so I try and keep my distance.

"Yes?"

"I think I'm gonna stop the therapy. It's not working for her and she just sit and stares at you."

"Your right... Ma'am if you don't mind me asking, uhmm were there ever any traumatic events in her life?"

"Well are life was always crazy but her uncle passed away when she was younger and I spent forever trying to find out who killed him three years after he died, I located my parents and turns out they were the ones who killed him. I left for a month or two to try and find them and when I did let's just say things weren't pretty. When I came back home I was a little more distant than usual but I guess it's because rem and I were so close before. Any way she was fine for two years and acted if most things were normal but I think she knew why I was distant. Her dad was there for her but I guess a daughter mother connection wasn't really strong after I came back. All the sudden on her twelfth birthday she just stopped talking. The light in her big blue and green eyes went out and she put up a wall between her and everyone else even her brother and they were very close, well there twins so I guess they'd be close but you know..." I tell the therapist.

Gosh I haven't told any one that in a long time.

"Uhm Sam, if I may call you that, there's two possibilities here, one, your daughter told her self that your absence or distance was her fault and felt she shouldn't talk, or something traumatic happened to her on her twelfth birthday. It could be that she saw some one she knew hurting some one and they told her not to tell, it could be that she saw someone she knew getting hurt, or it could be that the Trauma was direct." The therapist explains.

"So your telling me my baby girl could think that my distance was her fault or someone could have hurt her?!" I practically yelled putting my head in my hands.

"Unfortunately yes. I have these papers for you and your husband, they may help the both of you understand more."

I nodded not even bothering to correct her. No I wasn't married but I am in a relation ship with Jake. We both just agreed that we had been together long enough and every  one thinks we're married so why bother with a wedding.

All I know is if someone hurt my baby there's gonna be some issues.

-Remis POV-

I have been waiting for at least fifteen minutes now and I'm starting to wonder what in the heck there talking about.

Ugh why must you take so long mother.

Because I had nothing better to do I started thinking about tomorrow.

I have a battle tomorrow.

I'm nervous yet excited at the same time. I haven't rapped in a month or two because I have been singing and ended up signing with this guy.

He said he wouldn't put it out any where he just wanted to do it for practice so we have been working on that and I haven't had a chance to rap.

The battle tomorrow is the only battle in the city I'm going to before they have there one for rap battle champ or something like that I always rap for fun or to talk because I need to get something off my chest.

I haven't rapped about getting raped though. I don't want anyone assuming anything or if someone from my town is some how there I don't want them to go and tell anyone.

I always were hoodies and dark clothes though and have my big curls down. Something I never do back home.

My hairs always in a messy bun with jeans and a t-shirts at home. It's not like I'm trying to impress any body.

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Chapter 2!

Date: July 26 2016

-1120 words-

Luv~ H💖