My man of war!

 

Prologue

 

His arms embraced me as they pulled me in, his lips melted into mine as our tongues touched. No moment had ever felt more perfect. Until, his soft hand ran down my body as he brought me closer and pulled off my clothes piece by piece. His arm was upon my face and him leg wrapped around my body. We were laying there naked under the moonlight, numb to all of our surroundings with not a care in the world. To think this would be our last night, for a long time and maybe forever. It killed me! I tried to breathe him in, to take every last living cell before he had the chance to say goodbye.

 

Chapter 1- Not enough time

 

I awoke to find him curled at the bottom of our bed whispering sacred words to our son, maybe the last he will speak to him. “It’s not too late you know”. He turned and looked into my eyes. “Go back to bed” his eggshell voice stammering as he held back the tears. “I’m serious” I whispered “I don’t want you to go... I want you to stay here!” Those tears were forming full in my eyes. “Please don’t make it harder than it has to be...please” he stammered once again. He laid Nathan in my arms before he pulled himself up from the bed. “I need to be at the station for 10, so I need to hurry. Are you coming to wave me off?” “Yes, of course I am” my voice replied almost silent now. He pulled out the suit case and laid it on the bed “C’mon let’s take your mind off me leaving for now...Do you want to help me pack?” “Okay” I replied. Both of us were to brave to say anything, yet too scared to burst into tears.

 

Chapter 2 – Is it too late for goodbyes?

 

We arrived at the station at just gone 9:30, just enough time for all to say our goodbyes, though I wish we had longer. John’s Mother and Father found their way towards us; I could tell they were just as distraught as I. His Father always did have a firm meaningful handshake, but today he replaced it with a hug, he whispered in his ear “I will see you soon Son, okay!” His Mother stood next to me with her arm wrapped around my waist, doing her best to reassure that everything will be fine. After his farewells to his Mother, his presence came to me. His arms immediately wrapped themselves around my waist, just like they did many times before including our wedding day. “It won’t be too long, until I see you again you know, because I will just like I promised. I will be back and we shall raise our son and grow old together” he whispered in my ear “just a few years till I see your beautiful face once again”. He kissed me that one last time and disappeared onto the train. The tears fell as he waved goodbye. I pitied my Nathan our son, as he had no idea where he’s father was going, and what may lie ahead.

 

Chapter 3- Moving On

 

Those next few days were particularly hard trying to move on. I was beginning to become worried, he hadn’t written I told myself that he was just getting settled in the new camp. Then after a week I heard from him. And for that moment I felt contempt. The letter read...

 

To My Dearest Sophie,

 

The many amount of times you have flown through my head space is unbelievable, I don’t seem to manage a day without you in my mind. I am starting to find my way around and figuring out which strings to pull or not to pull. So far everything seems great! So don’t worry. The sergeants seem to be very straight forward what you see is what you get I guess. They believe in strong discipline and that no solider should behave without meaning. The meals aren’t too bad either, though I would much rather yours but I can’t have everything. It won’t be long you know, the officers are saying that if all things run to plan and stay calm. They may reduce my stay, meaning I will get back to you sooner. So for now, I love you!