Tainted Mind

hurtfull words mixed with a bit of friendship

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Hurtfull words mixed with a bit of friendship

Have you ever felt like the whole teenage population had an issue against you

Well that's how I feel Right now...it's like everyone is this school is a vulture...ready to pick up on the tiny bits left by the big predators...in this case I was the unfortunate springbok that was under the predatory eyes

The moment people realized that annie was making a beeline for me it was like everything stopped and their social lives came to a sudden stop

I felt like I was trapped in a never ending cycle of unknown hatred

"Well well well!!! Look what the cat dragged in" she smirked at me

It's painful having someone despise you at the same time not knowing why that person would go to through all means...just to inflict emotional pain upon you

I just stared at her and kept my mouth quiet because my mom always told me that when you interact with a fool or even argue with one, you tend to become one yourself

Plus I was a bit of a coward

I had never inflicted physical harm on one self.

Jesse considered me as someone who was mean but I just felt like I had better comebacks

Anyway I still stared at her as she continued speaking hurtful words towards me....

"What...you see something you like..i never pegged you for someone who batted for the other team but I would understand...someone with so much body fat as yours would tend to bat for the other team simply because no one is interested in you"

I just continued staring at her...I was jot almost immune to her words...I am a hug girl now...I kept on chanting that little short phrase in my head continously

One thing for sure...never ever let the enemy see weakness in you especially the vultures that feed of other people's sadness

But the facade I had put up broke the moment she uttered those words

"No wonder your mother wanted you out of her life...instead you led her to her death"

Let me tell you something...I did utter some of the my deepest darkest secrets to her but I didn't give her the full detailed description of how my mom died...some things were just meant to be kept sacred

She only knew that my mom died in a car accident I never told her the story about my da-...

"I am sure she swerved that car off the road...aarg people like you shouldn't exist in our world...petty people like you...you should have died along with your mo-"

By then the words had cut me so deep I just cried

I held on to my bag straps and ran away...I heard people quarreling but I did jot need anymore drama in my life

I knew I couldn't go back home to my mom...we had just started getting along...she didn't need me crying my eyes out over someone as useless as annie

Words have a way of breaking people.... I was most definitely broken to the core

I ran as fast as my short legs could carry me...my calves were on fire...my feet hurt...my hands felt numb from holding to my bag straps and my eyes blurry because of the tears that burdened my eyes

I came to a stop by the street near my house
I sat on the pavement with my head bent down between my knees...I knew i.shouldnt let her get to me but I couldn't help it...words are jot something you could take back just like that.