Beauty and a Thug.

I dont know if i was dreaming or what, but i saw my dads face. i jumped up and said "what are you doing in my room " a raspy voice, BAM! he punched me straight in the mouth!

Sorry if i didn't introduce my self, I'm Alaina Ramos. i never see my dad, and if i do he's always beating on me. my mom is 6 feet under. she passed away 5 years ago giving birth to my little sister micah.

At first i hated her, she took away the only thing i had. she took away my happiness, i hated Micah Ramos. but then she became the only thing i had, she became the reason why i continued to live.

My dad took drugs after drugs, he

Would leave money on the table and he wouldn't come back for months. At first i would be afraid, but now I'm lucky if he never comes back. Im my little sisters mother figure, to teach a child they're not the fault to my mothers death is difficult! shes just a baby..

Im only 16, where did i mess up? I have nothing. my moms gone, my dads dead to me, my whole school hates me. but why?

CHAPTER ONE

AYE AYE! my dad yells. "get up "

Im wake I'm wake" i respond, its 5:30 am, go take your little sister mimi to school and go do yo thang " my school starts at 7:40 dad. ion care" what you trying to imply ? nothing nvm!

I get up and get dressed, trying to wake this little girl up is like trying to take drugs from a addict! mimi mimi" fuck! little girl! yess nana? todays your first day go get dress girl"

As me and my sister walk out the house at 6:30 am i see so much people doing shit with their life! "nana whats that ?"

My little sister ask .. micah thats a person with no house.. you wanna be like that? i ask. no nana" she responds

Okay sus then you betta keep ya head in them books or ima beat cha OKAY?

I open the double doors to Franklin high. same shit every year. my junior year and i don't feel like dealing with this bs! i locate my locker and put all my stuff in. my phone vibrates and all my stuff falls.

Everyone looks my way. as I'm picking up my books Milo comes and help's me! "wassup milo" i say . gurrrl its the first day and yo hair is ratchet!!!

BOY! i yell yo gay ass so annoying !

Oh i almost forgot, I'm mixed with black, italian, dominican, and white!

The bell rings and i have mr. Turnip first period, I'm walking down the hall looking at my phone, cici texted me "what girl?" i respond girl guess who just sized me ... she says, i respond "Stefannie ? Yes girl she was in the hallway all over Cj " she says. " mhhm" i say. But yeah you know Cj don't even want her right? " i didnt reply she was getting on my nerves. I walked in and Mr.turnip yelled at me asking why am i late but in reality he's just a sad bitch ass teacher! He understands why I'm late and he's bipolar asf.. His wife was cheating on him and he knew, but he played along she eventually left him ..

As i sit there Cj walked in, nod his head up at mr.turnip and said "sup T" and sat two seats in front of me. I had a massive crush on him since the third grade. When my mom died we moved to Georgia but my dad was still on drugs and he was fired from his job. All I remember was coming back to turtle creek middle and seeing all the people i hated. I just wanted to kill my self, i had no friends and my mom had just pass literally four months ago. Cj seen me walk in and his eyes opened up he tried to be the cool kid and make jokes intill i busted out in tears. I hated him ever since.

My 8th grade year i met milo at the Boys and Girls club, i was getting service hours but he was there because his mom was at work. He was the only light skinned big booty boy there always being loud and talking about "50 Squats a day" he was so sweat to me and his mother was 10 x nicer. She loved me, baby sitter mimi whenever dad was gone on one of his drug days and she filled in for us when Cps came to Krenshaw. By the way i live in Turtle creek ,Florida . Me and milo fell of when my dad and Milos mom got into it but he cant leave me lol he loves me. I met cici my 9th grade year she is such a bad influence, but i have nobody to tell me other wise. I literally feel for the girl she lives with her grandparents and their so strict they beat her all the time and her grandpa is dieing. Strict parents create sneeky kids, this girl is a hot mess she is always in drama and always got to much going on. If its not her hair its her clothes. But shes a good friend,

BELL RINGS...

Back to reality! Its A lunch and cici is blowing up my phone. She wants to go to Luigis pizzeria but coach E is at the gate and I didn't really feel like hearing his mouth. I told her ill catch up with her later and went to the restroom. Stefannie was in there , she had it in me ever since i moved to krenshaw . She really started hating me when cici left her lil clique. Cj is her boyfriend but she plays the roll I definitely know he's just bf #1000 . When I walked in she started speaking her language ion understand ha ass so Idgaf. If it ant directed it aint respected , she decides to walk up to me with a black eye brow pencil and say " let me fix you hunny" I pushed her off and said " go to hell" she said " maybe you can get a boo thang" i walked out mad asf but I stopped and turned and said Yeah you right, i got one in mind and winked my eye.

7th period bell rings and i totally forgot to call ms.monroe ( milos mom) to ask if she can pass by and pick up mimi. Mimi gets out at 1:50 and i get out at 2:45 i didnt want her to wait. As im sprinting down the streets steff rides by and throws water at me and yells "Not looking like that " and I stopped to catch my breath . If someone passed by they couldn't tell if i was crying or what i was covered in who knows what! I walked up to turtle creek elm and mimi was sitting there, she jumped up and said nana uhh why are you wet and i just laughed and hugged her.

chapter 2