"Why would you love back the person who hurts you in the first place"

"Why would you love back the person who hurt you in the first place?"

"Why would you love back the person who hurt you in the first place?"

Have you ever experience loving again the man who broke you piece by piece and just forget everything the pain and change it into happiness??? Could you ever see any truths on this situation? Can't help itL its good for you or not??? How was this happen???

Hi it's me again can't sleep thinking about any possibilities or circumstances that is there really fate? Or just coincidence? It's already 11:56 pm and I'm still wide awake can't sleep, this thing keep bothering me why! Why! Why! I can easily forget the pain I've been through??? Did I really move on? Or I'm now holding unto the hope that he's changed he will not hurt me again?? Really! Do you think he will not hurt you again? T A N G A nakaya ka nga niyang saktan noon ngayon pa kaya???:(

It's been one year and a half. I can already say I've move on because I can face and talk to him like just a friend. I didn't know why we put this to a difficult situation I don't understand, he makes me happy again why? Maybe because were already friends but I think its back again ... did he stick together again my broken pieces how? I don't know....

this is how its starts........

Once, he approach me with very inappropriate way. I don't know why but I think that its better to talk about this and make some corrections for almost one year of not showing my true happenings in life since then we broke.... People say we really go to the hard breakthrough in our lives, He also downfall stories after I left and I also was. So I talk to him to make things clear about what really happened between us. Since that day we had small conversation of everyday like it's just a friendly approach and a brief happiness for treasuring the past.... I also send pictures and messages on how regretful he was to let me go hahaha did I feel so evil in that way? Hahahaha peace! I just can't let my ego under his ego it might be disappointing but it makes me feel better. I feel his downfall regret not by words but by actions. It might be surprising that I'm slowly facing my ex-boyfriend through months of anger and disappointment before, but now look at us we've grown enough and we still thankful for each other in having both sides before. Through days past it was summer where I officially decided to make him my friend and forget what happen in the past. He's saying those sweet words again, hearing our old cute names before, and sharing happy moments together like calls and chickas and then suddenly it was just how we started our relationship in the past. He still the guy whom I in love within two years and a half and just broke up through lack of time and effort. It's not new for me to be feel special by a guy but this is not just a simple feelings it's just bringing the dead to life. Do you ever experience this kind of affections? Some people say its natural but some say you're banking yourself into a scam investment but for me I don't know.

Month past and he is still as gentle as before. Could you ever imagine a guy who broke you will make an effort in downloading movies for you and awkwardly everything is all about love? It's such a great effort or not? I've been through guys who give me sweet things like chocolates but you know what, what I miss the most! Not the expensive chocolate, I miss the person who gave me not too expensive chocolate but buy it with a heart and soul. Am I missing him? NO I'm not but I miss being treated by the guy whose only priority is just loving me and also making me happy. Did you feel me? Or I overreacted? It's just quite simple to somebody but for me it's everything! Why would I allow someone in my past will came back to my present and made me think how that is happen?

More days pass and his hair is fast ly growing long, his wish it to never cut them off but unfortunately I feel so ashamed and I blamed myself why he would make himself a laughing stuff to everybody. it hurts me also seeing him been bullied. Did I say I was hurt too? Can't help it, his also my friend L Then I propose a lot of dealings with him and the prize is to cut his hair just like what it looks before but none of them pass.... He also challenge me just to play make him the loser and I guess I can't beat him so I cut it out because I think I'm just wasting my time and what can I do I'm just only his friend now not his girlfriend. I already ask him the scariest question I've ask since before "what would I do just to please you in cutting your hair" he just say he will cut his hair until his mother will come back and I feel too disappointed of that because maybe if his mom will see him her mom, would tell what did Rachel do unto you? Cause last time I saw his mom when were in high school , his mom left to work abroad and I feel so worried about him that time cause his really sad and feel so doubted why his mom would need to leave. We are so young at that time, He couldn't even understand how it feels like I feel so sorry for him because I'm not with his side as a girlfriend when her mother take a fight off I didn't see him cry but I only hear his slow, sad and lonely voice. He also didn't tell his mom that we already broke up. People say why you are keep holding on the past and I said, did I? I'm just showing sympathy in every decision he get involve too, in spite of that circumstance. Do you know why I'm telling this after I had a strong opportunity and I took courage in answering his question how we broke up, I just said that I just can't bear the pain that time and I think were lack of time for each other and I'm always waiting for none sensitivity of effort. He just let me listen to a song which made me so worried." nothing by the script" I feel so guilty about the song... one day, I ask him several questions which made me feel so guilty about it. I give him question to be answered by what comes first in your minds and the first person he first think is in number three which my name is written... It just made me feel that am I really the one who's name come up through his mind this time... made me wonder why.

Through months past were still communicating in messenger sending pictures together and laughable stuffs. I almost forget the book which I always talk about The Reflection of a Man by Amari soul cause I feel it suit to him hahahah devil laugh peace J which a man realize after a break up from a girl and psychology saying truths about her and how he regret that all the time. And suddenly my hearts softly feel flattery by him by not texting him just for one day, he quickly change his mind to cut his hair off for me by not being mad. By that time, I feel too thankful that I will never hear bully comment from his friends about him and he finally cut his hair off.

Through days we feel new stuff like we never been broke by piece by piece before from each other. Now where I starts my questions in life...

There is really a possibility that a feeling that is been dead already come back to life????...... actually before he approach me with an inappropriate manners There's a guys who courted me for almost 5 months and you know what I feel so bad because sometimes that guy will do something romantic I badly compare him to my ex like when he texted me and had a fight the guy named Eric will say can't sleep cause we had a fight with 5 messages and 3 missed call but in my head I miss the way my ex approaches me when we had a fight because I receive hundreds of messages and call from him just to make me feel comfortable until I answer the call. When Eric gave me Ferrero chocolates I miss my ex chocolates like barnuts and etc. when going out I feel comfortable being with my ex than eric sorry but cant help it so I decided 3months ago to stop the courting plan cause I can't stop comparing and the f*ck I don't know whyL should I love back the person who broke me piece by piece before????? I just only wonder it by now how this thing could happen... Now only I can do is to think positive that it's just his way as my friend. No over react but just a simple friend ways....other might think that it's wrong, they are just making yourself too miserable ,,,, but for me always follow what's in your heart that make you feel glad and may have no regrets in life Good mornight its already July 26, 2016 at 1:16 in the morning:-*