Lost in the rays of the sun (MB love story]

And It's Off

Ok sooooo readers .. thanks for reading ik you like TF BITCH HOW IS THIS THE END?! 

This was shit that happened in my ACTUAL life just in a different way the person this story was dedicated to was my FIRST true love we started dating on May 15, 2013 (The Best Day Of My Life] BUT it all changed with this one girl im changing her name it's .... Nay *cough* kay *cough*  And call me crazy but I love her to death yet a part of me hates her ... My therapist told me to talk it out no matter how hard things get let all hate out of your life ... well im bouta let it out now this is how i feel ...

IM HURT DESTROYED SAD MAD AND LOST .... 

Im hurt because - Me and him been thru everything together I mean breakups cheating (he cheated on me with nay) tears (mainly me) cutting (only me) etc. but it was like no matter what he did i helped him thru everything 

Destroyed- Because as yall can see ,, I lost my parents im in foster care and i thought that if I had him thats all i needed ... he left me broken hearted 

Sad- I truly loved him and fell deep in love with him lmao smh ik silly me 

Mad- I BEEN THERE FOR EVERYTHING DAMMIT ... I DESERVE .... idk anymore i to  mad to think 

Lost- ... I dont know what I did that was soooo wrong other than love him unconditionally ...

SOOOOOO ... this is to him cause ik he reads my story 

Bugga ... I hope she makes you happy that you never make her cry and that yall live happily ever after .... NOT NIGGA WHY? TF? lmfaoooo ok ok im jk i really meant happiness for yall *smiles fakely* 

Bugga ... I love you so I hope she treats you right and Ig Imma still be here for you even after every prmise you broke but dont forget our songs ... Mirrors  ,, Rough waters,, A lot of others ... ohtaii GOODMORNING READERS MORE OF MY RANT LATER ;)