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Title: Sorry Noah
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"Dragging you here was never been my plan. Marrying and loving you forever was. You never know how much I want to kill myself everytime I hurt you."
Agad nangilid ang luha sa mga salitang sinasabi nya. Please Noah dont make this hard for the both of us.
"You can ignore,shout and hurt me anytime you want Sam but please,just stay with me."
Bumibigat ang dibdib ko sa mga salitang binibitawan nya.
"You're mine Samerah. Mine."
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I watch the man I love who just left me few years ago. He's doing his morning routine ang pagsisibak ng kahoy. He was born an elite so nakakapagtataka talaga na marunong sya ng mga gawaing bahay. I just look away from the window at agad bumaba para makakin sa hapag.
Umupo ako natulala ako sa pagkaing niluto nya para sa akin. Same old Noah. His pleading eyes last night while asking me not to leave him keeps flashing in my mind. Bakit pa sya bumalik? Bakit pinapahirapan nya ang sarili nya para sa pagmamahal sa isang mortal na katulad ko.
Nakatulala lang ako sa sulat na hawak ko sa aking kamay. Nangilid ang luha ko at isang hikbi ang kumawala sa aking bibig. No! He just cant leave.
Tears starts to roll down my cheeks while reading again the last line of his letter.
"I will let go of you, Even though it hurts a lot, Even though I think I can't. I will try my fucking best to just let you go. Wag ka lang nilang saktan. Keep safe I'll be back soon. I love you Samerah."
He's gone. And I'm not sure if he would still comeback.
I shrug as I remember some memories of the past. I just continue sipping my coffee when the Demon came in. Hes topless and damn his sweats are dripping. He left me sexy and he came back sexier.
"May perya na tinatayo malapit sa bayan. Gusto mo pumunta?" He said while wiping his sweat.
I just ignore him at agad tumayo.
"When will you stop this?" he said getting my attention. Tinaas ko ang aking kilay at humarap sa kanya.
"You're always like this. You always ignore me. Everytime I'm trying to talk to you,you wont listen. I'm tired to this set up Samerah"
Nagulat ako sa pag buburst out nya. I'm just starting. Pero bakit pakiramdam ko my principles of ignoring him would betray me.
"You came back and drag me to this place. You always act like nothing happened are you dumb to know it Noah? I hate you."
He let out a heavy sigh and said "Samerah hindi paba sapat ang paghihingi ko ng tawad sayo? Is it not enough baby?" sabi nya sabay lapit sa akin.
"Fine,punta tayo sa perya. Just call me pag aalis na tayo." I said avoiding the topic. I always don't want to talk about pag pupunta ang usapan sa paghihingi nya ng tawad sa akin. I feel his arms wrap around me. His chin resting on my shoulders and his lips almost kissing my earlobe.
Damn heart stop beating so fast. He quickly give me a peck on my cheeks.I can feel my heart beats faster than its normal state. We did more than kissing years ago so stop beating this fast, just pump my blood and shut up.
Pero agad nalang akong nagulat ng kumawala sya sa pagkakayakap sa akin. Marahas nyang hinawakan ang ulo nya.Sinasabunutan nya rin ang kanyang buhok. He's screaming and his breathing becomes heavy. He raise his fingers and looks at me giving me signal not to go near him. His eyes is slowly turning red. Ruby red.
"Le-leave. Go to your room. Lock the door. Don't come out until I said." nahihirapan nyang utos sa akin. Sinubukan kong lumapit sa kanya pero itinulak nya lang ako.
"I said go!" he said shouting. I ran upstairs and quickly lock the door.Naririnig ko ang pagkabasag ng mga bagay sa baba. He's screaming loudly. I start to let out a sob. What's happening? He can't control his Impulses again.
