Drag Me Under (on long term hold)

Echo in my head

I decided to not tell Noah about seeing Sebastian in the mirror yet. BitchSlap has a gig and he has enough to worry about right now as it is, I didn't want to stress him out past his limit. It's not like its an immediate issue, I plan on tell him about it tomorrow.

Every time he demanded that I tell him what happened I just said I didn't want to talk about it. Even though I saw the pure frustrated anger boiling in his dangerous blue eyes he wouldn't yell at me or force me to talk, he would just wait a little while then ask again.

"Noah, can you do me a favor?" I asked playing with a strand of his blonde hair. He was trying to focus on Kenny singing on stage so he wouldn't explode with rage. We sat side by side in a love seat to the side of the stage.

"Anything." He took a deep breath to collect himself before turning to look at me.

"Can you give me a back massage? I'm a little tense." Without waiting for his answer I slipped into his lap leaning forward so he had easy access to my back.

"Of course." He chuckled. I felt his tension slowly leave him as his hands worked their magic gently smoothing out my tight muscles. My body was all kinds of tense and jacked up after what had happened in the bathroom.

"Thank you." I sighed finally being able to relax. His warm touch chased way Sebastian's physical effect restoring my body back to its normal self. But it took extreme concentration to block out his words from echoing inside my head. There was so much that I was refusing to deal with or think about I just pray it doesn't come back to bite me in the ass.

"I'm really worried about you, Cinna." He exhaled deeply his hot breath against the back of my neck.

"I know." I felt bad about keeping it from him but this is better then how he would reacted if I had told him right away. At least this way he has time to prepare for it.

"Are you sure you're okay?" He pulled me back against him wrapping his arms around me burying his face in the side of my neck. "Tell me the truth, please baby."

My concentration snapped. Hot tears threatened to blur my vision as I saw Sebastian's face, his cruel twisted grin and murderous eyes. His haunting voice ringing in my ears as he told me what he wanted to do to me. I had to remind myself once again that I was safe in Noah's arms, that he couldn't hurt me here.

"Y-yes." I whispered sinking back into Noah's embrace. He knew I was lying of course.

"I won't make you talk about it if you don't want to. But just know I'm here for you. I will always be here for you. I promise I won't let anything hurt you. I'll keep you safe." He whispered kissing my cheek softly. "I love you."

"I love you too." A hot tear escaped rolling down my heated cheek. Sebastian can't hurt me here, I know that, but why can't I force his words to stop? Why can't I make his face disappear from my mind? It won't stop.

A few more tears escaped despite my wishes. Gently Noah wiped them away shushing my silent cries. I couldn't help it. I guess I could only hold myself together for so long before finally cracking.

"I'm sorry." I whispered my hands beginning to tremble.

"You have nothing to be sorry about! If anyone should be saying sorry it should be me!" He held me tightly as if to keep me together, to keep me from falling to pieces.

"I-I just can't get his voice out of my head." I cried. That damned voice! Repeating over and over. Tormenting me and taunting me!

"Baby, whose voice? Tell me, who scared you? Who did this? Please, just tell me, Cinna." He rocked me back and forth as I cried.

"S-Sebastian!"

"What did Sebastian say? You can tell me, it's okay. He can't get you." He spoke softly in my ear.

"He w-" I took a deep breath to calm myself a little. "He wants me."

"That will NEVER happen. Do you hear me Cinna?" His voice was strong and confident. "You are mine and I will NEVER give you up! Not to him, not to anyone!"

"He got in my head. I can't get him out!" My lungs burned as I gasped for air.

"Replace his voice with mine! Just think about me." I know I was scaring him but I couldn't stop. I tried to shove Sebastian out but he would just come right back!

Think about Noah! I tried to think about his warm protective arm around me, about his gorgeous face but Sebastian wouldn't have it. He got louder!

"I can't, I can't!" I gasped.

Picking me up and turning me around, he held my face looking me in the eyes. Concern was dripping from his face like sweat after running a marathon.

"Listen to me. You can do it. Try again." Leaning forward he gave me a gentle kiss. "I love you."

Looking into his loving eyes the voice screaming in my head started to fade. I thought of our first kiss at the zoo, about how fast everything's happened. I fell in love with him as if it had already been decided by fate.

I let my feelings for him overcome my fear. Sebastian left with my fear leaving Noah as my only thought.

"I love you." I whispered pressing my lips to his. My shaking had finally stopped, but it left me tense once again. He kissed my back not caring if we were still sitting in the Baked Cafe. Not that anyone noticed, everyone was to busy watching my brother on stage.