I've known I was bi since I was 10. I remember coming out to my mom in the car, not knowing people would find it "wrong". We had been talking. And she told me she wouldn't be able to "handle having a gay kid". Looking back on it I realized how rude that comment was. But 10 year old Rachel didn't think much of it.
I asked, "Mom. How do you know I'm not gay?"
"Because I would've known when you were born."
At this age it made sense to me. I didn't really question her. But it didn't make me unaware. I had been questioning my sexuality for about 4 months, and after finding out about Bisexuality, I knew it was who I was.
"Oh okay," I said, "but I know I'm bisexual"
"You're what?" My mom asked, her voice was on the verge of anger. I had no idea why.
"Bisexual," I continued, "I like girls and guys."
"No you don't! It's a phase! That's all it is! You won't be once you find a nice guy!" She told me shaking off the most important thing to me. I don't know what I expected, after all, my mom always had been semi-homophobic.
So after being out of the closet for five minutes, I was shoved back in, where I still am today [August 1, 2016].
I remember soft tears falling down my cheek as we drove on.
After I was told that I shoved it deep inside me and told myself I was straight. But almost three years after, present time, I realized I wasn't. I started having those feelings again. The girl crushes. The deep sticky feeling of falling in love. Of course I had some guy crushes. But only the kind with tingling feelings. Not the feel like throwing up kind which I only got from girls. I was so confused. Was I gay or was I straight? And I turned to the internet. And there it was again, bisexual. I read more about it. Bisexuality was the attraction to two genders {NOT ONLY MALE AND FEMALE}. And after more reading and asking on Tumblr, I learned that yes. I could like one gender more than the other. So there it was. I knew it. I was bisexual. Naturally I told one of my best friends, or at least I thought she was my best friend [but that's another chapter for another time].
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We'll All Get Bi
Non-Fiction"You're just greedy" "Why can't you just pick a side?" "Are you lesbian now that you're with her?" "Are you straight because you're with him?" Theses words have been told to me and others multiple times. We aren't confused. We aren't gay. We aren't...
