More Than Words (Sequel To Sex, Drugs, and Mötley Crüe)

She's So Afraid Of Love, How Could She Be So Fine

I sat at the kitchen table looking at the divorce papers, with a pen in hand. All I had to do was sign them. But it was hard, because if I did, that meant Duff and I are officially over. I mean, I know we're done, but it's hard to except it. I do love him and he'll always hold a piece of my heart. He's not my first love though. Nikki and I had and still do have our ups and downs, but I love him. I'm in-love with him. It took a long time to realize that.

I haven't heard anything from Duff, other than the divorce papers coming in the mail. And at his request, he asked that he could still see Elena.

"She may not be biologically mine, but I raised her til now and I'm not gonna stop being her father just because her DNA doesn't match mine." He had said.

I didn't see a problem with it, but Nikki seemed to think different.

Now that he knew he was Elena's father and that Duff and I aren't together anymore, he didn't want Duff anywhere near me or the kids. Which resulted into an argument between Nikki and Duff.

After I got all of mine and the kids' things from Duff's, I decided that the kids and I take a break from the "rock 'n' roll lifestyle". Not forever, but for a short time. We all needed some time to think. Nikki wasn't to happy about the idea, but was reluctant to whatever I thought was best at the moment.

He helped me load our bags into the car and decided to drive us to the airport.

"You know you don't have to do this. Right?" He said, for the thousandth time.

I sighed,

"Nikki, we've been through this. I need time to think. I just need a little time to get all of my feelings, thoughts, and emotions sorted out. I'm not leaving forever. I promise."

The rest of the ride was silent then, we finally pulled up to the airport.

We walked to the gate where we would be boarding at. I had already gotten the tickets.

"I want you guys to know that I love you so very much. I know things have been crazy lately, but through everything I love you and nothing will ever change that." Nikki said to Braxton, Alixx, and Elena.

He then pulled them into a group hug, tears coming down his cheeks.

I've never seen Nikki act this way before, it was tearing him up, knowing we were leaving.

"We love you too dad. Mama loves you too. She never stops talking about you." Elena gushed.

I blushed and looked down at my black beat up converses.

He then walked over to me and grabbed my chin, to make me look at him.

"Have I ever told you how beautiful you are when you blush?" He said, with a smile.

Causing me to smile and blush even more.

"God I fucking love you Lexica Belle, before I met you I didn't know about love. I was a lost boy with nothing but a bass guitar. You gave me so much hope and opened my eyes to so much love and compassion. I know I've put you through a lot and I'm so sorry for that." He had tears pouring out his perfect emerald eyes.

I pulled him into a hug and kissed him.

"I love you too, Nikki."

"I just don't want you to go." He said into my neck, we was still in each others arms.

"I know, but I have to."

"No you don't. You can stay here and we can get married. Lex I love you, I've lost you once, I'm not fucking doing it again." He said, getting on one knee.

I was speechless, I knew exactly what he was fixing to do.

"Lexcia Belle, I love you with everything I've got. And I'll never stop loving you. Even when I have no air in my lungs and my heart stops beating in my chest. You're all I need. You're all I want. You're perfect for me. No drug could ever compare to how high you get me. Will you marry me?" He asked, looking desperately into my eyes awaiting my answer.

I don't know what to say. Hell, I'm not even divorced from Duff yet.

Before I could answer, a woman on the intercom said, "Flight number 10806 to London is now boarding."

Nikki looked at me with tears in his eyes. Silently begging me not to go. God it's killing me to do this to him.

"Nikki, I can't. I'm not even divorced from Duff yet. Even after that, I can't just rush into it, I love you, but I need to get everything sorted out in my head right now."

With that I turned and motioned for the kids to come and walked towards the gate, leaving Nikki with tears falling.

I took one last look at him, watching him break down and my heart completely shattered.

I continued to walk with the kids following til we got to the plane door.

"Mama, he loves you. You love him. Just go to him already." Elena said, her brother and sister nodding in agreement.

"Mom, love only comes once in a lifetime, you were offered another chance. Take it. Go to him." Alixx said, giving me smile.

"It's not that easy guys. Yes I love him, but I'm not ready to just marry him right now. Duff and I have to get through the divorce and I'm just not ready..."

I looked at the direction that Nikki was in and back at the plane. I can't do this. The kids were right, I got to go back to him. I love him.

"Come on." I said, turning around and heading back to Nikki.

I need him.

When we reached him he was just fixing to walk out to the parking lot.

"Nikki!" I screamed, causing him and everybody else to look at me.

When he saw me his eyes lit up. Like city lights and he grinned from ear to ear.

He ran to me and wrapped his arms around my slender waist and passionately kissed me. I've missed his lips so bad.

"I love you so much." He said and kissed me again.

"I love you too, Nikki Sixx." I said smiling, and he smiled too.

The kids came up and hugged us we hugged back. I love my rock n roll family and couldn't ask for anything better. These kids and this man are the best thing to ever happen to me. I felt a ring being slipped onto my finger and I looked down to see a silver skull with black diamonds on it. It was beautiful and I looked up to see Nikki smiling.

"We don't have to get married right away. Whenever you're ready."

I kissed Nikki and he kissed my finger.

"I got my kids and I got my girl. Now let's head home." He said with a smile, as we walked to the car.

When we got back to the house, I grabbed the papers and my pen and signed the divorce papers. My decision has been made. I'm going to spend the rest of my life with the man I first fell in love with, as Mrs Lexica Belle Sixx.