The Vamps Imagines and Preferences

Song Preference - Burn

Alright, so this is the second song preference I'm doing so I hope y'all will like it. Highly suggest you to listen to this song 'Burn' by our baes themselves, The Vamps.

PS: Took me a month to write this because I procrastinate a lot and finals are coming up lol sorry loves.

Side note, some doesn't relate to The song okay. Just using the lyrics. SO NO HATE ALLOWED. IF YOU DON'T LIKE THIS THEN FUCK OFF

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(Y/N's POV)
Connor : "I need big dreams in city streets and bright lights 'cause this seems to make me feel alright."

"Calm down. Its okay, its over. Shhh." Connor said. I just had a panic attack again.

Those thoughts haunt me. My past haunts me.
12 years ago I was sexually assaulted for 2 months straight. I was threatened to not tell a single soul. But when I did, nobody believed me. For 10 years, I couldn't sleep well at night so I had to depend on melatonin. The therapy sessions didn't help me at all, they only made it worse. And ever since then, I never liked it when a guy was close or when people touch me. It's scary to think that I'm much better now as the only person that managed to help me was Connor.

-flashback 2 years ago-

Connor and I have been in a relationship for 6 months now and sometimes I just get scared. I don't blame him. Its my past haunting me again. 

"I know you're not okay y/n. Something must have happened before all this. You're not okay. I can tell by the way you act around people especially guys. What is it? Its fine if you don't want to tell me but just know that I can help you." he said. He cares. I can tell he really does. Maybe I can trust him and tell him.

"Connor....I...I was sexually assaulted 10 years ago." I explained the details to him.

"I will stay and help you y/n. Only if you don't mind me staying and helping. I really care about you. So much it hurts to see you upset. I swear I won't let anything happen to you ever again. Would you let me stay?" I nodded.

- flashback over-

Ever since then Connor has been by my side helping me get better. I don't get panic attacks that often anymore and I won't know what I'd do without him. He's my light to my world. To help me feel alright again.

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(His POV)

James :    "And I'll be lost and alone, and I'm scared to fall on my own, I need hope or control but something's pulling me in. "

After all these years. She's gone. Just like that. All those memories stuck in my head isn't helping. On second thought, nothing's helping. Not the boys, not my therapy sessions, not my career and not my dream. It's like a nightmare.

They often said dreams will come true, but what they never said was that nightmares were dreams too. How can god be so unfair? Bring her back please. I need her.
"Y/N, if you can hear me, I need you. I love you so much it hurts. It hurts and I can't let go y/n! Why?! Why is it so unfair?!" I screamed at the sky.

It has been a solid 6 months and I still can't get over the fact that she's not here anymore. Not existing anymore. This world is so unfair and cruel.

'WHAT DID Y/N DO TO DESERVE THIS?!'  my head screamed out.

"James... We all know Y/N doesn't wanna see you in this condition. You need to stay strong James. I'm sure it breaks her to see you like this. Please, you need to stay strong." Connor said as he pat my shoulder. I didn't realize I was still on my knees outside my front door as I stared at the sky.